Monday, December 27, 2010

i'm craving this tonight...

[whaddaya say tevan, 5x5 right when you get here?  mmm, those fries look divine!]

Saturday, December 25, 2010

engaged!!!

december has been off the chains cuh-razy, so i apologize for the lack of blog posts.  however, i've had a ton on my mind since mid-november that i've been *dying* to talk about and now can, so you can be expecting a deluge of posts:)

first of all, i think you need to know:  you are now reading the blog of an engaged woman!!!  that's right, tevan got me the best present ever for my birthday...a big fat sparkly ring!!:)  this is what i've been dying to post about since mid-november!!!  and now i can finally talk about!!!  that's why i haven't been posting much--i was afraid i'd give it away.  anyways, we started talking about it in the middle of november and found "the ring" right before thanksgiving.  it's perfect!  princess cut, with a delicate band, white gold.  it's beautiful!  the problem is, is i have teeny, tiny baby hands.  my ring size is a 4.5 and the one at the store is a 6.5.  if they'd resized it, because it was that big of a resize, the diamonds would have fallen out.  so we had to order me a brand new one to be made.  so.  we had found the ring.  and we decided since christmas would be the first time we'd be apart in the entire time we've been together (four whole days--kill me), we'd get engaged before christmas.  but i had *no idea* when it was coming.

i really wanted jaz and brianon there so i didn't have to re-tell how it happened, i could just immediately be freaking out.  tevan knew this, but kept saying he didn't know how he was going to do it.  (meanwhile, he had decided around thanksgiving how he was going to do it.)  and jaz and b kept asking when tevan was going to talk to them.  (he already had, but jaz says once she started lying to me, she couldn't stop.)  so...the scene is set.

open:  my birthday.  tevan woke me up with breakfast sandwiches, which was a perfect way to start the day:)  this rainbow party from jordan ferney's blog was what i wanted (well, that plus everyone wearing party hats!) so brianon and kristina spent all day making me the coolest cake, 10 horizontal layers, each layer a different color.  and it was beautiful!  i went and got my hair done and felt super pretty and then we went to dinner at noodles and co for *the best* mac and cheese in my whole life.  so many of my friends were there and there were about fifty brightly colored balloons all around our table.  plus everyone was wearing dinosaur party hats.  it was *exactly* what i wanted:)



[balloons!]

[i gave a ballon to every little kid in the restaurant and they were flipping out:)]

[friends!  i love your stinking guts!  thanks for making my b-day so special!]

after dinner, we went to see "tangled" at my favorite movie theatre.  it was awesome!  might even be my favorite princess movie now, it was *that* good.  if you haven't, go see it.  stat.  anyways, jaz and b left about twenty minutes before the end.  i thought they were just going to the bathroom but they never came back.  after the movie was over, i looked at my phone and there was a cryptic text from b:  "emergency at stadium terrace, i will call when i know more details.  i'm sorry! but the house is clean and the cake is ready and janell will be there to 'run' things."  now, you need to know:  the last time there was an emergency at stadium terrace, a girl had driven through stadium terrace with her car and pinned a girl to the sink and the girl was in the hospital.  so.  i'm freaking out that something equally bad had happened and neither b or jaz are texting/calling me back.  tevan manages to calm me down finally and we head home.  OH!  also, the plan was for everyone to come to my house after the movie for cake. 

so we drive to my house and no one's there.  it was really weird because we had been the last ones to leave the theatre.  so i was like, "oh no! brianon spent all day making that cake, she's going to be so disappointed no one came, we'll have to eat that whole cake," blah blah blah.  and tevan just said something about how we probably just beat them all home.  and i went to grab the balloons (we had almost all of them in the car with us) and tevan just told me to leave them and we'd come back to them.  i was kind of confused because brianon had told us to bring them in, but i let tevan lead me down to my door.  the house was totally dark and he asked me if i wanted my birthday present right then.  i said "yes!" and he pulled me onto the grass and handed me an odd shaped package, wrapped in target ads.  [nice touch, i love target:)] i opened it and it was one of those camelback water bottles, in blue, that i've been wanting since about august.  i was pretty excited about that until he pointed out there was a note on it that said 'open'.  i opened it and there was a note in it.  i pulled it out and it was an arrow, pointing at tevan.  i looked at him and he had a laser pointer in his hand.  [now, you need to know a few things.  1-one of the first times we hung out, tevan and i watched a meteor shower.  we almost cuddled but he was too big of a chicken;)  anyways, we had talked a little about green laser pointers which are so powerful you can see the beam and point out constellations and stuff.  way cool.  2-andrea got me a laser pointer for my last birthday, a normal red one, and i like to shine it on sparkly rings and make the light bounce everywhere.  tevan knows this:)  3-we won a normal red laser pointer a few weeks before this on a date to the nickelcade and have been playing with it lots.]  i was pretty stinking excited about that and was shining it all over the place.  it was the most fun and irresponsible gift he could have gotten me (and i told him that). :) 

so i'm shining it all over the place and tevan says, "want to see something else cool?" and i look over at him and he's got a ring box in his hand and is going on one knee.  i start jumping up and down, "oh my gosh, oh my gosh!!!" and he takes the laser pointer and opens the ring box and shines it on the ring and light goes everywhere.  he says, "will you marry me?" and i says "yes yes yes!!!" and about knock him over, hugging and kissing him.  then i hear a *pop* and out of the corner of my eye see...confetti?  [a little more background info.  a couple weeks before, we had been watching an episode of glee and sue had some confetti cannons and it was totally awesome.  it became an inside joke for us to say, 'you know what this *whatever* needs?  a confetti cannon.']  tevan had made me a confetti cannon!!!  and jaz and brianon were on the balcony above our door, recording us getting engaged and firing the confetti cannon.

it was awesome!!!!!!!!  afterwards, we went over to joanna and janell's house and had cake.  it was rainbow-y delicious:)  i couldn't stop smiling for hours.  not only was it my first birthday with a boyfriend, it was my first (and only) with a fiance!  definitely the best birthday i've ever had, by far:)   


[look at that handsome guy:)]

[rainbow cake!  and you can see my ring!]
so, just so you guys know:  the big day is march 12!!!  you thought you were bothered by me not blogging, now try me blogging incessantly about the wedding.  you can't wait:)

now i just had finals and joanna and matt's reception to worry about.  finals were stressful, to say the least.  i ended up with a c, two bs, and an a minus (in wwII -- so proud about that one!).  it's nice to not have to worry about school for a while.  then we had matt and joanna's reception.  it went soooo perfectly!  i even got props from an apostle!  dallin h. oaks came (apparently he's an uncle of joanna's) and said it was beautiful and that i had done an amazing job.  and matt and joanna loved it.  and that's what really matters:)  it was incredible watching my dream come to fruition.  and the people having their reception there the next night paid to keep the lights up -- $75.  pretty awesome, huh?  the success reinforced how much i love planning parties:)  i'm all in with my business, for sure.  i even have a name!  ready?  risceptions.  and the tag line is:  risceptions, parties & more...  like it?  i love it:)



[this is the best picture so far, janell has only posted 30 on facebook.]

and now it's christmas!  it's totally awesome being home with the whole family (even danny's here!).  and brianon came home with us because she couldn't afford the plane ticket home, so it's fun having her here as well.  but it SUCKS being away from tevan.  he went home for christmas, and it's only four days, but it's the first time we've spent even a day apart from each other.  and i HATE it.  i don't ever want to be apart from him again, it's the worst feeling ever:(  so i'm trying not to focus on it.  i'm trying to keep myself busy reading and hanging out with my family.  it's working a little, but i cannot wait to be with him again.

so...i think that catches us up! 

Saturday, December 4, 2010

member how i'm crazy about this boy?

[he sure is handsome:)]
i know i haven't been posting everyday.  here is a makeup post saying what has been going on the past little bit:

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so.  there's a little peek in my brain.  

Tuesday, November 23, 2010

haaaaarrrrrrryyyyyyy potterrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

so we went to see hp7 tonight and it was totally awesome!!! the best part was that we went two hours early and almost no one came to the movie.  we could have come ten minutes before and probably got the same seats - but that's okay.  i needed the guarantee of sitting by the bar in the front so i could put my feet up :)

in other news, the weather is supposed to be awful tomorrow.  this might make it so we can't leave tomorrow.  in fact, my mom is basically having a panic attack about us driving at all tomorrow, so it's looking like wednesday is the day!  fingers crossed it will clear up by then!!

today i got to spend some fun time shopping with b and it was the best ever:)

how do you guys feel about:

*bright events*

Monday, November 22, 2010

i'm in love i'm in love and i don't care who knows it!

so i've received several complaints that not only am i not blogging everyday, i continue to write posts about how i'm going to try and start doing it everyday and then don't.  i want to apologize for that.  i've been a weird combination of lazy and too busy.  i know that's a contradiction, but it's the truth.  so.  here is my official re-commitment to blogging everyday.
fair warning: my posts might be about tevan.  every single day.  here's why...

[to: tevan      from: me]

i've also got my first client for my yet-to-be-named event planning business!!!!!  i'm currently planning a wedding reception in mid-december.  it's coming together incredibly well and i'm super excited about everything:)  i'm really in need of a name though!  what are your thoughts on "bright idea events"?

guys, i'm having the time of my life doing this and i want to keep it going.  please please please recommend me!!!

also: can't wait to go home this week!!!

Friday, November 19, 2010

no way november what

wow.  last night was totally totally awesome:)  i feel like this:

*exploding rainbows + confetti canon*

additionally, i just remembered the list of 25 things i was going to do before i'm (gulp) 25.  here is an update. 

25 things before i'm 25

1. go to hawaii
2. read the book of mormon
3. throw someone i love a giant surprise party
4. read pride and prejudice
5. get a 4.0 spring semester
6. pay off 1/3 of my debt
7. go to the dentist
8. throw a christmas party
9. get a massage
10. get in touch with my best friends from high school
11. get into the education program
12. run a 5k
13. make a music video with jazmin
14. learn to like fruit
15. do something fun for halloween
16. throw a murder mystery party
17. go to the temple at least once a month
18. throw an awesome backyard tea party
19. go to disneyland (for free!)
20. read 2 classic books
21. see 2 classic movies
22. go fishing
23. compete in a ballroom competition
24. reboot game night2.0
25. be freaking awesome

it's funny how i have a lot of different priorities since i made this.  i know i won't get some of them done, but i'm going to do some.  my birthday is in 22 days, so i better get crack a lackin...

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

Wednesday, November 3, 2010

Thursday, October 28, 2010

i am pretty sure spiders are minions of the devil himself.

oh my gosh oh my gosh oh my gosh

the scariest thing just happened.  here i was, minding my own business on the couch wishing andrea a happy birthday on facebook when all of a sudden i see movement.  on the front of my shirt.  now.  i am not a fembot, so the only thing that could be moving is a foreign object/creature. 

and that creature was a gigantic spider!!! i started screaming and i ripped my hoodie off and my computer fell on the ground and i tried to flick the spider off but then i couldn't see it and i didn't think i got it and i thought it was still on me and it was so scary!

brianon had to run out of the bathroom mid-pee to save me.  it was so awful.  she was so brave.  she found it and killed it.  and i maybe cried a little.  i'll blame it on my cold (the crying) but really it just really scared me. :(
[that is to scale.]

operation: start blogging again. (check)

guys i am feeling so sick and so stressed about not living up to expectations.  i am feeling quite frustrated with myself for abandoning my blog.  i did it every single day for almost a year and then i let some dumb boy make me feel like i couldn't talk about what i was thinking.  and it is so hard to get back into doing it everyday.  several of you have said stuff to me about missing me blogging everyday and i'm really sorry.  i keep committing and recommitting myself to doing it and it's just hard to get back into it.  especially when you are just one giant snotty mess with a fuzzy head.  (on the inside.)  and being sick is making me not go to school and that is making me feel even more stress.  so here is the thing:

body: you just need to freaking quit being a buttface/facebutt and stop being sick.  immediately.  right now.  post haste.  stat.

brain:  guess what dummy? you just need to sleep.  and not during class time.  at dark time like a real human does.

boyfriend:  you are lovely.  i adore you.  forget about that snotty mess you saw yesterday.

bestie:  we can't be sick at the same time!!!!  this is the worst.  i can't wait to watch copious amounts of television with you.

jazi:  we are sad and lost without you.  come back to us!!!

self:  stop watching scary movies.  you don't like them.  esp not devil-y ones.  stop thinking you have to like them just because it's halloween.  that is stupid.

everyone:  i've made up my mind.  my event planning business will be up and running by the end of january.  i'm currently looking for names, so if you help me come up with one, you will win something.  and it's going to be something totally awesome, just for your information.  i want the name to be something whimsical yet classy, because that's what my events will be:)  let the contest begin!

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

in my bar fight, la grange is playing.

i'm real sorry this has some swears in it.  so...keep that in mind before watching.

hilarious. 


Tuesday, October 12, 2010

i read 120 pages todayyyyyy

[this is not a comment on anything in particular.  just a comment on how i'm a freaker sometimes:)]

Monday, October 11, 2010

10/10/10

b is home!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

jaz: you can do anything great!!!!!!!!!!

in other news:  i had a full-on panic attack at church today about driving to salt lake that turned into being afraid of failing at life in general.  awesome.  luckily i have the best boyfriend in the whole world.  it's like i have a distress beacon and he has the receiver and knows not only when i need him, but what i need from him.  i am the luckiest girl in the world.  :)

Thursday, October 7, 2010

to whom it may concern:

[you are my person.  come home.]

Wednesday, October 6, 2010

i can't get to sleep, i think about the implications...

i felt like this today at work:


ps: does anyone else have a hard time with the new (i guess it's just new for me) blogger thing where you make a new post?  like i'll try to hit enter a few times to go down a few lines and it just goes to the beginning of the original line...but there are invisible lines if i arrow down to them...very annoying.  is this just on mine?

Monday, October 4, 2010

roonil wazlib

sorry about the whole "not posting for two weeks" thing.  it's been a crazy couple'a weeks.

:)

Wednesday, September 15, 2010

pigeons, writing til i die & smartypants.

did i kick some major booty and write my whole freaking world war two paper this evening?  yes i sure freaking did.  six and a half straight hours of writing.  i don't know who is writing what i'm writing now because i've lost all capability of logical thought.

tonight i'm going to dream about pigeons.

[smartypants.  she knows everything.  and her fingernails shine like justice.]

Tuesday, September 14, 2010

life explodation & super ily

it's 2:15 am.  i just finished reading a novel, two and a half textbook chapters, a book report and about two hours of grading work.  now i just have about 100 pages to read and a paper determining my grade (aka my life) for my world war two class that's in a format (turabian) that i've never even heard of, let alone used, to do.  what's that?  it's due in less than 33 hours?

great.
who wants to come pick my brain off the floor?

[what party is complete without super ily?  she has the power of flight, does that do anything for you?  how about the power...to move you?]

Monday, September 13, 2010

introducing...super week!

on saturday one of my best dreams came true: i *finally* threw my superhero vs supervillain party.  i don't want to brag (well...okay, yeah i do), but this was one of my best parties.  i wish i could throw parties for a living.  everyone always has fun and they'd be even better if i had any money at all!  anyways.  this week i will be featuring one or two photos in each post.  for those of you who came: holla.  you are the coolest.  hope you had the best time!  for those of you who didn't:  check out what you missed suckas.  for those of you not invited:  oopsies.  sorry:S  i still like you, forgive me?  for everyone:  next time will be even better.  your face will literally be rocked off.  be there or be square.
[awkward girl.  i have the power to make people (esp. boys) feel awkward and uncomfortable, sometimes to the point that they pretend i don't exist when i am standing right next to them.  my alter ego has this power as well.  my powers are so intense they even work on my (cute) boyfriend.]
stay tuned for more...

(ps.  i never feel sad when people make comments on my blog.  unless they are unkind.  then you can just watch bambi again ya big dummy.  also ashley casey soper, you rock.  miss you girl:)  hope life is the best!  )

Wednesday, September 8, 2010

Friday, September 3, 2010

star light star bright


[the other night tevan and i were stargazing (no shenanigans, just literally looking at the stars and chatting - promise!) and we saw like 7 shooting stars.  this almost word for word happened in my brain.]

Wednesday, September 1, 2010

smrt

school has started again and it's looking like it's going to be a great semester.  here's the line up:

history of world war two (upper division)
world civ from 1500 to present 
history of the american economy
young adult literature (upper division)

it's going to be tough, but i know that if i work hard and do my best that greatness is not only possible but probable.  some of my goals for this semester include:

1-get straight a's
2-get a scholarship for next year

it can be done.  i've just got to work hard, do my best and then the Lord will help with the rest.  right?

"A constant element of enjoyment must be mingled with our studies, so that we think of learning as a game rather than a form of drudgery, for no activity can be continued for long if it does not to some extent afford pleasure to the participant."  - Erasmus

Thursday, August 26, 2010

here eez ze sing...

[post script:  i think you are the best and i'm sorry life is being so crappy.  even though sometimes it feels like we are the picasso's of loneliness, in the words of liz lemon we are actually "the painting elephants of awesome".  never give up; never surrender.  love love love.  also please don't think that the "heart will always belong to you" business up there is lezzy style.  it's just normal besties style.  jsyk;)]

Monday, August 23, 2010

we are eating pepper and chips

i read this quote on a blog today:

"not because it's better than nothing
but because it's better than everything."

and i can't get it out of my head.  i want that in every single aspect of my life.

Saturday, August 21, 2010

this may sound like gibberish to you, but i think i'm in a tragedy.

i feel like i need to preface this with the fact that i just drank a bunch of nyquil.  from a champagne flute.  yes, we're running a pretty classy establishment here at the hapt.  i'm fighting it a little to write this, so if it turns into a drug induced ramble, feel free to just...not read it, i guess.

'the switch' is fabulous.  you need to see it right now.  it's top ten of all time for me.  absolutely loved it.  

i've been doing so good lately with moving on and being a superfox.  but tonight i'm feeling a little sad.  like i just wish i mattered to someone.  this is not a cyber-plead to you to comment about how i matter to you because i'm your best friend/granddaughter/kid/sister.  i know i matter to you.  and i love that i do and wouldn't change that for the world.  i'm talking boy matter.  i just want a boy to think about me when he's at work and text me and ask me some silly question just because he wants me to think about him.  or be invited to do something.  i know me and brianon are super fun adventure planning girls, but that doesn't mean i don't like being invited to do things sometimes too.

so if you are a boy that thinks i'm the bees knees (if such a guy exists): man up prove it.

this is not making very much sense, so i think i will be done.  i am about to pull a 'laura' and fall asleep on my computer.

Wednesday, August 18, 2010

bizzy bizzy bizzy


i am feeling about 27 times better. the funny part is, it's not like some big miracle happened or i did something special. i finally just decided that i was tired of feeling sad, and wanted to be awesome instead. so i did. i'm not saying that i don't have low points. but i am saying that i feel loads better.

brianon and i had a fun surprise on sunday: someone mysteriously left a dozen gorgeous pink roses on our doorstep. we asked around but no one was saying anything. i'm super intrigued. it was such a kind thing to do and i really wish i knew who gave them to us so i could say thank you. it really made my day.


another thing that's been going great is this whole 'hanging out with/making new friend' thing i've got going on right now. i'm keeping sooo busy (two jobs? plate=full) working and playing with all my friends. (especially friends that kill the fifty million spiders that all of a sudden are invading me and b's house! yikes!) it's really great having friends to plan adventures with:)

speaking of adventures, let's go camping!


[ps. briaXnon graduated thursday. this is what i got her. jealous?;)]

Wednesday, August 11, 2010

this is my new addiction

Young and Reckless: "Rob wants drama to live his brand, Young and Reckless."

huge thanks to tevan for not only fixing my car but killing not one, not two, but three to ten spiders tonight. you are a spider-killing-car-fixing machine. i hope you "rock" your final tomorrow [bahahaha...only tevan will know how punny i am:)]

Tuesday, August 10, 2010

i found a dollar, i found a dollar, i found a dollar hey hey hey hey



this is the creepyest thing i have ever seen! this is why i'm afraid of them!

Monday, August 9, 2010

today is going to be a great day

i've been thinking quite a bit and here's what i've come up with:

#1 - i have the coolest 13 year old brother in the world. he's been like a life preserver for me the past two weeks and i literally wouldn't be here if not for him and

#2 - brianon. sometimes i feel like God was like, "sorry, you don't get to have a love that will last forever...but i made you this best friend that is for reals your other half...so...still a win-win, right?" i can't put into words how great brianon is. the best i can come up with is that i want her to marry my brother (which i'm okay if that doesn't happen, it's just the highest compliment in my power to give!). i love this girl so much that if the grandma eyeball spider came back to life, i would be brave and kill it for her. i'm so glad that we are roomies now and can't wait for all our fear bonds and adventures together.

#3 - i miss blogging. this is my journal and i've let my fear of showing my crazy/being sad all the time stop me from saying how i feel. and i'm tired of bottling all this up. so you know what? i'm back baby. and if it bothers you to read what i'm writing, you can just kiss my ass/stop reading cuz no one is making you read this. this is me and how i feel and i'm not going to hide that because it's convenient for anyone else.

#4 - for the past 2-3 weeks, most of my days have been a "too serious for numbers" on this scale. it has been sucking balls.




but. what i have decided is this:and i am tired of feeling shitty all the time. it is shine time. i really miss dj a lot. he was my best friend and i'm still pretty devastated and probably will be for a long long time. so even though i feel like this right now:



i think that this is going to be my theme song for a little bit...



[if only i could find a marching band to follow me around...]

Saturday, August 7, 2010

you boogerface, i'm going to kill you with a bazooka!

once upon a time, i blacked out at work this week. here's how it went down.

1. i start getting weak in the knees, literally weak in the knees, and break into a cold sweat.
2. then i start getting tunnel vision and only hearing this noise "shhhhhhhh"
3. then i can't see anything so i sit down really quick before i fall down.

also this happened while i was giving a customer change. so step three happened while i was saying "you can sit anywhere you'd like - enjoy!"

so...that was real great.

Thursday, July 29, 2010

i'm feeling pretty dark and twisty

"here is my heart and soul, please grind them into hamburger and enjoy."

we were happy. we were so happy. and the worst part is is that we were, right up until we weren't. all i can think about is when we were happy. everyone around me wants me to be mad, to stop taking this lying down...but i can't. i feel like a piece of me is missing. i can't stop thinking about when we were happy. and wondering what happened to those two happy people - where did they go so suddenly? he was my best friend; the person who's supposed to comfort me when i cry, not the one that makes me cry. the person i tell about my bad days, not the one whose absence and negligence causes them.

i feel like one of those people that are so freaking miserable they can't be around normal people. like i'll infect the happy people.


Saturday, July 24, 2010

dream come true

know what i did today? i channeled steve irwin & dave salmoni and saved some baby quails. they had fallen into my window well, so i hopped right down there and, braving scary spiders, rescued 5 cute little guys.


[i believe that we can be extraordinary together instead of ordinary apart. i hope you give us that chance. i miss you more than i can say; you are my best friend and being apart makes me feel that a piece of me is missing. this week's been awful and i'm feeling very confused and hurt. i love you. you love me too, remember?]

Thursday, July 22, 2010

all sorts of love

i went to the temple last night with my cousin. the provo temple is closed right now so we went to mt timp. i vaguely remember going to the open house when i was a littlie, but didn't remember much about how it looked. wow. mt timp is an amazingly gorgeous temple, esp the celestial room. it's the biggest one i've ever been in and was just...exquisite.


we tried to do a session, but it was incredibly busy. sam had never done sealings, so we did that instead. afterward, we were able to spend a little time in the celestial room. i won't go into detail, but i will just say that i love the temple. the spirit of the Lord is able to abide more strongly there than any place i have ever felt. i entered the temple feeling anxious, stressed, upset, worried, and sad. i left feeling incredibly calm, loved, and at peace. are my worries gone? definitely not. but does the Lord love and want what's best for me? does he know not only what i want, but what i need? absolutely.

Tuesday, July 20, 2010

i am feeling spicy tonight.

well, to put it simply, yesterday was the worst. lots of crying and feeling helpless = not my favorite. here's what i decided: absence [definitely] makes the heart grow fonder, but it makes the rest of you pretty lonely. so...miss you.

but today is a new day and its big highlight is my experiment is finally over and the results are in : blondes have a whole lotta fun, but it sure is nice to be back to my roots [literally]. :) so blondie hair, bon voyage. thanks for the sassy, fun times and you were tons of fun while it lasted. brown hair: welcome back, you've been missed. [it's also been decided that you are quite spicy.]
tonight was fun-a-palooza at applebees. the highlights of the night for me were threefold: 1-listening to a guy sing 'piano man' and bring the house down, 2-seeing all my awesome friends, and 3-singing 'your love is my drug' with b complete with sam doing some super sexxxxy backup dancing.

i'm soooo tired right now, so i will post the pictures in the morning.

[as promised, here are some photos! sorry it took a little bit:)]


Sunday, July 18, 2010

listen: do you smell that?

sorry for the radio silence kids, it's been...one hell of a week. full of happy and sad moments. right now feels like the worst of all the games, i'm afraid to say. i feel sad that i've been neglecting my blog this past few weeks and solemnly swear [i am up to no good] that i won't let it happen again. this is my forum to say whatever i'd like, however i'm feeling, and feel the relief of getting it off my chest. which is something i desperately need if i don't want to go around having anxiety/panic attacks all the time. which i don't. so...forgive me?


[today was the worst. i feel like there's a huge knot in my chest and i can't breathe.]

Monday, July 12, 2010

in no particular order...

dj, my cute and affordable apartment, my beautiful backyard, having a reliable car, harry potter books, my family, brianon, living close to the temple, having people i know i can count on, warm sunshine, school starting soonish, laura being home, dance, music, cool water, stars, bright colors, ethan sending me encouraging texts, having a job, seeing mac and kai, being home from dumb new york, second chances, talking to danny, baby girl & fake parents, being able to put my hair up, not feeling sick all the time anymore, not being afraid to be myself, the atonement, fans, tivo, being able to verbally throw up via this blog, washer and dryer in my house, my new fridge, parents who support me 100% no matter what

Sunday, July 11, 2010

7/11 - woo!

we got a new bishopric today. it's bittersweet to see bishop meservy and brother cuevas go, but i'm excited to get to know bishop schoenfeld and his counselors better. they seem really great.

i also got to drive jaz up to efy in salt lake. she's having such a cool experience being a counselor there, i'm really excited for her. also, it's real nice to have my car back. i can stop feeling like a mooch!

and the best news of the day is that dj is home!!! he went to vegas to see his brother get married and spend time with his family. it sounds like he had a lot of fun, but i missed his stinking guts and am sooo glad he's back :)


[isn't this rad? how long do you think it took to get it just right?]

Saturday, July 10, 2010

drumroll please...

great news everyone: i got my job back!

after literally getting on my knees to beg and a sales pitch pitching yours truly, i am once again employed. salad here i come...

still missing, missing, missing though...

[tomorrow!]

Friday, July 9, 2010

heads we go right, tails we go left

tonight brianon and i were looking for adventure. we found it in the form of a penny walk. we started at my house and flipped a penny at every intersection to determine where to go. towards the beginning, we got to stadium terrace and stopped to talk to our favorite angel for a bit. then we watched some wedding dress shows with miss cami for a bit while she provided b with tums and advil. last of all we picked up matt mitchell and then hit the road (jack).

here is a link to our route:

http://www.walkjogrun.net/routes/current_route.cfm?rid=BACFC88E-C42D-E8E0-76F030EF221588D5

it ended up being a little more than 4 miles. pretty fun adventure!

add that to the walk to the library we took this morning (3 miles) and we walked 7 miles today! plus swimming a bit. we were quite active today; are you proud of us? :)

Thursday, July 8, 2010

everybody writ it long hand. [aka i am a moron]

today was weird. i need to sleep. and get my job back and maybe swim/tread water/have a tan tomorrow.


[this song was on an episode of scrubs that i loved. i showed a scene to em & b today and it's been stuck in my head ever since!]

Wednesday, July 7, 2010

veronica mars marathon - can i get a little john 'yeah'?

you must watch this. embedding was disabled, but you will be so happy you clicked through...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m8cnhXmJcJo
[alex & twitch hip hop. omgosh.]

also, brianon...


[or incredible television, like what we watched today. holy crap.]

Tuesday, July 6, 2010

$$$$$

www.nataliedee.com
www.nataliedee.com

but alas, there's no "fun" in "no money to pay the bills"...

Monday, July 5, 2010

to grow or not to grow, that is the question...

so dj rrrreeeaaalllyyy wants me to grow my hair back out. i was feeling like i didn't really want to because i feel like my short hair is very sassy and fun. however, i was looking at some pictures...


and it turns out my long hair is pretty stinkin cute. i just forgot.

also the dark side is calling me...not that the blonde hasn't been super fun [hey, i nabbed me a boyfriend and went to hawaii, i'd say it's been pretty dang great :)]. i think i'm just ready to be normal old me again...

Sunday, July 4, 2010

let freedom ring :)

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to camp out with b for the parade tomorrow morning. i lasted til 1am then went home to sleep in my own bed. i felt like danny glover in lethal weapon.



i am a terrible friend.

Saturday, July 3, 2010

i love america's stinkin guts!

today was so fun!

eclipse at the buttcrack of dawn with my ladies (and matt). super dumb, but fun. then b & i picked up jazi-jaz up in salt lake from efy. she sure had a great time and it was really fun hearing about all her stories.

then tonight was a fun bbq and the stadium of fire, which sucked a little bit, i'm not going to lie. the people doing the fireworks need to get it together and do a real show. and not have a twenty minute break in the middle. that's super dumb. but you know what? for the first time in my life, i got to cuddle with my boyfriend and watch the fireworks light up the sky. as lame-o as the fireworks were, that still blew my mind :) plus, at the bbq we had homemade corndogs that were delicious-o.

jaz took a ton of pictures, so i'll post those as soon as she emails them to me. lots of fun ones of friends, me and dj & the explosion of adorableness that is baby girl loving fireworks :)

Thursday, July 1, 2010

one month :)

ich bin ein glücklicher ente. ich liebe dich!
[thanks google translate:)]

Wednesday, June 30, 2010

and so i'm back. from outer space.

after a day of travel hell, i'm finally home.

honestly, this has been the best and worst day.

on my way to the airport, i get a call from us airways that is basically "oops, your flight got cancelled." great. so i get on the phone with travelocity (sprung for the travel insurance), thinking it'd be no big deal to get me on a different flight. wrong. they could get me out of newark for an extra $200, or i can fly out of jfk...tomorrow. this is not working for me. no money, no way to get anywhere, i'm stuck at the departures gate at the dirtiest airport in the continental united states, maybe even the world. so i start crying and telling the people on the phone and at the check in that they *have* to get me out of here, that they *have* to get me home. people behind me are getting pissed and yelling at me and there's nothing i can do. the travelocity guy's useless, never using them again. finally the guy behind the counter takes pity on me and works with his manager to get me a ticket on a delta flight leaving later that afternoon.

now on to the delta line from hell. i waited an hour and forty five minutes (people kept butting in line - so annoying!) and when i finally got to the check in desk, it turned out the us airways guy had only printed me a ticket, not made me a reservation. the lady got me the. last. seat. i asked her to marry me.
so off to wait for my flight to leave in five hours. the gate changes once i'm down there waiting to another gate all the way across the airport, but at this point i'm just happy to be past security. i also randomly saw two girls from my dance team. so weird.

then i flirted (shamelessly, i might add) with the delta gate agent to get an aisle seat. i must have either been on fire flirting or looking like a total mess cuz he went above and beyond and got me exit row aisle. now that is how to travel. i could slump in my seat *and* stretch out my legs. it was awesome.
i fiiiiiiiiinnnnaaalllyyy get to salt lake and got picked up by two of my favoritest people in the whole wide world: dj & b. dressed all wacky - i loved it. i nearly knocked that boy off his feet. driving back to provo was really surreal, i couldn't believe it was actually happening.
but it's real. i'm home. and i never want to leave again. ever.

[here's b's airport picking up outfit. you can't see it but her skirt is actually a sparkly clubbing dress. and her butt looks fantastic.]

Tuesday, June 29, 2010

welcome to ris's world of freaking the heck out. please buckle up for safety.

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had a talk with the mom and we decided i am not a good fit because her needs are different than expected because she's home way more than she originally thought she would be and having me here is too many bodies and is wasting her money and my time. (not to mention the fact that i wasn't allowed to say no, let alone discipline these children whatsoever and that having me here and not allowing me to do my job is ridiculous.) so she told me to use her credit card and book myself a new flight (they decided it would be cheaper than having to pay the rebooking fee from my original ticket, which was going to be about $300) for sunday because they could really use the help over the weekend. no problem, i say. flight booked, for only $230. then at ten tonight, she mentions to the other nanny (yeah, you can see why i'm not really needed. i was the 2nd nanny. for two kids.) how i have to be up crazy early tomorrow morning for the car service. 'on sunday' i say. 'no, tomorrow' she says. somehow, i didn't get a text from her saying she talked to her husband and they decided it'd be better for me to leave tomorrow morning.

cue the 'holy crap' string racing through my mind.

so. an hour (and $400) later, my ticket is changed to tomorrow. i feel terrible about all that wasted money but she didn't seem to care very much, which is crazy. are you doing the math? that's $630 for me to go home. that's not even including the $500 it took to get me out here less than a week ago. i feel sick about it. but i also feel relieved to go home. this has been an complete and utter disaster from the get go. the mom was incredibly kind and gracious (i really like her) but the job has been a nightmare.

i will be home in less than twenty four hours.

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Monday, June 28, 2010

Sunday, June 27, 2010

i'm hungry for some soup. good thing i just saw joel mchale in times square.

well, it took me a while, but i finally found my church. it's a tiny ysa branch about twenty minutes from my house and (dj called it) i'm already the branch piano player (i hate the technical word for that. it makes me giggle like a twelve year old.). good thing i get to play some i love america songs next week. those are my favorite style. i will probably go early and battle hymn of the republic prelude it up.

after church, i met up with allie in the city. somewhere between pinkberry (yum! esp. watermelon), cosi (double yum, plus what was with all the cops with huge guns?), seeing joel mchale in times square (sorry it's blurry! it's for reals him though.),


and hanging out in bryant park (new favorite park, sorry central. try and beat it, i dare you!), i decided i love my friendship with al. it's great because we can call and talk and see each other sometimes and it's really fun, but neither of us get butt-hurt if we don't see/talk for a while. that's a fun style of friend = low maintenance. :)

all in all, a pretty great day.

Saturday, June 26, 2010

today i got spit in the face by a six year old.

seriously.

what.

am.

i.

doing.

here.

???

and now for some comic relief...

[courtesy of ilovecharts.tumblr.com]

ps. skype, i love you. nothing beats being able to see your handsome boyfriend's face from 2221.89 miles (kill me) away. a tip of the hat to you.