Thursday, December 31, 2009

adieu 2009. you were the best of times, you were the worst of times...



this is not how my new years went, but someday it will :)

happy new years everybody! may 2010 be the year you've been waiting for. quit sitting on your butt, wishing you had done things and for your life to be a certain way. get out there and live the life you've always wanted. the only one stopping you from having the best year ever is you. good luck and keep me posted on your adventures. i'll sure let you know mine!

Wednesday, December 30, 2009

indubitabely tosh.

next time i say guess what, it's not going to be i got a baby panda...it's going to be i got a baby merpanda. and it's going to kill everyone.

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also: who from charlevoix michigan is reading my blog? do i know a michiganian? or do i just have a random follower? either way, shout out to you :)

Tuesday, December 29, 2009

i need some more socks.

fun fact #39: when i was little i was in love with sea otters. one time we went to the monterrey bay aquarium and i stayed at the otter area for like an hour. then my parents wouldn't buy me the most adorable sea otter stuffed animal ever and i was sad. but then somehow i got it. i hope it's because i was good and not that i whined til i got it. my parents didn't really give in to crap like that so i'm pretty sure it's cuz i was good.

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also: baby penguins? hello, they are so stinking cute. what if a sea otter and a penguin mated? it would be called...a sea pengott. and its cuteness would blind you.

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Monday, December 28, 2009

it's a barter system

you know what's great about being single? i never have to fight for the covers:)

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it's never this. it's all miiiiiine!!!!!!!!

ps. sherlock holmes? AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sunday, December 27, 2009

Saturday, December 26, 2009

i see you.

just got home from avatar...


oh. my. gosh.



it was so awesome. the effects were incredible!!! seriously, it'll make all special effects before seem like something your little brother did while dicking around on the computer. we saw it in 3d which made it ever cooler! just try not to sit by some gross old smokers who talk during the entire movie-it'll make it way more enjoyable :)

Friday, December 25, 2009

merry christmas!!!!

merry christmas everybody! hope your day was wonderful! mine was pretty great, just really tired cuz i didn't go to sleep last night. however, i did get to build an entertainment center, so that was fun :) i really like building stuff-it makes me feel good. anyways. great christmas!

fun fact #9: when i get mad, my mouth gets really really small. as in, you almost can't see it small.

Thursday, December 24, 2009

merry christmas baby, you sure treat me nice.

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this is my family at christmas. we love each other so much that we want to kill each other a little bit on christmas. it's kind funny, but i hate it at the same time. hopefully tomorrow will be better :)

merry christmas eve everybody. and to all a good night.

Wednesday, December 23, 2009

Tuesday, December 22, 2009

the orem claire's is super trashy

after driving back up to provo at six in the morning on scary snowy roads, two ultrasounds, one ct-scan (complete with injection of contrast that makes you feel like you're eating metal and about to pee your pants & drinking a huge thing of another contrast thing that tastes like funky, chunky berry-ish milk), and four hours in a freezing cold waiting room, i have great news on the health front everybody: i don't have cancer, pancreatitis, or gall stones. which is wonderful, immensely relieving news. what's sucky news is that they still don't know what's wrong with me. stab in the dark at bacterial stomach infection which = two weeks of antibiotics. and everyone keeps making me feel stupid and saying it's probably just anxiety.

it's not just anxiety.

but all the same, hopefully the antibiotics work. i'm so sick so sick of feeling tired and oh so tired feeling sick.

three cheers to my mom for driving up and back with me, she is the best mom on earth!

Monday, December 21, 2009

tomorrow everything could change

teddy roosevelt-all i remember is this:

changed my facebook status, let's haaaaave a dtrrrrrrr, he didn't call, three french kisses, something something something, and a ticket to the dollar movie.

refresh my memory?

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www.nataliedee.com

Sunday, December 20, 2009

my dad does not like the game taboo.

i was just thinking today that whenever life gets crappy, i just need to think: at least a crazy lady didn't come to my house, drug me, and then steal my baby out of my stomach like on private practice. that shiz is crrrrzzzy.

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fun fact #34: getting my socks wet while i'm wearing them makes me more angry than if someone were to steal $5 from me.

Saturday, December 19, 2009

mingle mingle mingle mingle

so jazmin's ugly sweater christmas party was tonight and it was really fun! everyone came in their ugly swag and played games and had a great time. my sweater was child size so that was most excellent. anyways, a+ shindig jazi jaz. bravo.

also: i am very exhausted. so this is a short post. my apologies...

Friday, December 18, 2009

she stole my heart and my cat.

i'm finally home! i drove home this morning and got here around 3. then i played the prelude/wedding march at stephbax's wedding. it went pretty well i think :) when i play in front of large groups of people i get really nervous and my hands get freezing cold and shakey. i had a couple of tiny messups, but i think i'm the only one that noticed. it was a really nice ceremony...

today's been kind of a rough day-i feel super nauseous (which is pretty much the norm for me for the last 2 months unfortunately) and my brain feels like it's going to explode. so...that stinks:( hopefully it goes away while i'm sleeping!

also i learned a new game called scrud. you play it on a pool table and it is way fun. i am really bad at it though. to the point where we made a special rule that should have made me win but still was the first one out haha!

Thursday, December 17, 2009

to delete or not to delete...that is the question.



today was my last day both at work and school. i feel weird now. bittersweet.

tomorrow = home

Wednesday, December 16, 2009

i have all the tender sweetness of a seasick crocodile.

a forgotten carol

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=co95UshXloU

you won't be disappointed. and for those of you that want to watch something right this very second on my blog:



a very baer-y christmas to you. and you. and you. and you.

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

history 2710 final? check.

fun fact #496: sometimes when i'm driving, i make up poems in my head. they are usually not nice. or very good. haha :) here's one i 'wrote' the other day...

(composed on i-15 between university parkway and american fork main street.)

in the land of passive aggressive you are the king
the crap that you pulled was the stupidest thing
i ever have seen
it really was mean

i now feel invisible
it's stupid and pitiful

i'm sick and tired of feeling this way
it hurts and it's lonely and totally gay
so if you're an a-hole just please stay away
thank you and have a very nice day.

the end.

you're welcome for enriching your life just now. also, that was edited because my mom reads this and i told her i wouldn't say anything too bad...


thanks to mallory for this (arrow pointing down)



seriously, best mix you've ever made me. i can't get this song out of my head. love it and you.

Monday, December 14, 2009

history 2700 final? check.

fun fact about me #64: i know the lyrics to almost every weird al song by heart. the very first weird al song i heard was 'trigger happy' on a mix tape made by the gibbs family for the first baer trip from san jose to utah. it's been true love ever since. here's to you al.

Sunday, December 13, 2009

and i was like 'yes! i want to bake cookies on your stomach.'

in the brother's bloom, penelope is talking to bloom and says this:

'i think you're constipated in your freaking soul. i think you might have a really big load of gummy petrified poop up your soul's butt.'

now that, my friends, is poetry. and so is this.

here's my schedule for the week:

monday - take history 2700 final 11-1, work from 3 to whenever, study for history 2710 final & psychology
tuesday - take history 2710 final 9-11, study psychology, work @ 3 and sleep over
wednesday - take psychology final, work 3 to whenever
thursday - take film final early in the day so the testing center isn't completely ridiculous, work from 3 to whenever (last day=weird)
friday - go home!!!! early morning, practice with nolan when i get home, play stephbax wedding at 5ish
saturday - don't worry about anything anymore, do whatever i want.

so if you want to play with me before 2010, you better get on it, cuz i leave in 5 days!!!


Saturday, December 12, 2009

saturday is a special day

i had a great day just hanging out with danny today. first he made me breakfast (at noon, still counts). it was this taiwanese thing that he loved on his mission. i was a little nervous because soy sauce in the morning? really could go either way...but it was stinking delicious!!! they are called danbing. in chinese it looks like this: 蛋餅 very yummy! then we did a little christmas shopping, that was a lot of fun. we finished up with some five guys burgers and fries for dinner and rented 'the brothers bloom'. i liked it a lot, it kinda reminded me of 'the wendall baker story'. just kinda quirky. i would recommend it.

it's been so fun having danny up here the past couple days, i'm really glad he was able to come. he's one of my best friends in the whole world and it's been awesome having him all to myself:) i'm so excited to go home for christmas!!! four finals and five days...i can make it!

Friday, December 11, 2009

it's my birthday!!!


cassie and i with smeyes.


andrea and jon ware are some of my favorite people in the whole wide world. andrea is the queen of curses. and pedi-smiles.


me and danny!


my roommate teddy roosevelt


me and teddy, just moustachein around




em & adorby ily!



ily is my favorite baby ever


i got to see mal at the mall for a second, then she drove home and ran a 5k in the snow. cuz you're not hardcore unless you live hardcore.

thanks to everyone who made my birthday so special! we started out the evening with dinner at california pizza kitchen (andrea and i had tostada pizza-yum!) which was sooo fun. then we came back to the hapt and played ninja (apparently i'm dumber than a child cuz i couldn't understand how to play), silent football, and curses. we also ate my ninja turtle cake and i opened some presents. it was a really fun night and it was so fun seeing everyone! i love all y'all:)


Thursday, December 10, 2009

just your average "surprise birthday cake with both ninja turtles and normal turtles" thursday

i really love ingrid michaelson. everything about her is great. she writes her own songs with great lyrics, she plays her own stuff and her voice is awesome. i discovered this song on pandora the other day and it's been stuck in my head for a few days. she is just way cool:)





additionally: my brother is here!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


Tuesday, December 8, 2009

i am not a jack johnson song.

my life is a disaster of epic proportions.



1:23 - 2:00 is how i feel.

i'm going to try the 5 things that are going good thing again...

1-i have the best friends in the world
a-i live with the best roommate/best friend a girl could ask for. seriously. she even wrote me a song and decorated our dryer to make me feel better. how many people can say that?
b-emme and jon let me come over at all hours of the night (and morning) to sob on their couch and let me hold their baby.
c- jay, mal, nolan, steph: i know you guys have my back no matter what, threats and plots of attack included :)
d-danny and jaz: best friends forever (literally, we're sealed:) )
2-i'm pretty sure ily and i are psychically linked. so sorry she had a rough night last night too em...seriously though, baby ily is like medicine for me. even if i'm completely freaking out, holding her makes me feel like everything is going to be okay.
3-i got my birthday off of school and work
4-the utah state senate is making it possible for me to go see a specialist. maybe i'll vote next year as a thank you.
5-i have the most supportive parents ever that are always trying to remind/convince me that i matter. and that life will get better.

Monday, December 7, 2009

q: what did i dig my car out of the snow with this morning? a: a dust pan i found in the garage and my dixie state id card

the terms motivation and emotion both come from the Latin word movere, which means "to move." i think that's pretty interesting, don't you?

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oh yeah, also fml. with a fermata on top. that means forever, just in case you don't speak music.

let's put it to a vote: who thinks i should move away and/or kill myself til i die from it?

so far it's stay here: 0 move/die: 1

[update: the score is now stay here: 2 move/die: 2]

Sunday, December 6, 2009

i prefer consistency.

so friday night brandon opened for david hopkins at velour. musically, it was a great night. i really liked david hopkins. this song has been on my mind so i thought i'd share it with you. it's not the best recording, but it was the only version i could find on youtube.



there was a man who was taken down
from a position of respect in a new york town
he always thought he was one step out ahead
with a long history of recklessness
he went down kicking screaming in a prostitution mess
scientists and politicos analyzed it
with his wife to his right he apologized
she was choking on tears i could see her eyes
but she stood by his side
she knows we all fall down sometimes

there was a strange case in wichita
the police the sheriff and a little crowbar
and a little crowd of fascinated media
and when they put the question to that man
he said that 'real life love doesn't make no plan'
he said that 'real life love doesn't take anything for granted'
she would rather be dead than face her fears
locked herself in the bathroom for two years
but he stood by her side
cuz he knows we all fall down sometimes

i ain't (i can't understand what he says here)
just because you survive don't make you strong
i cast the first stone at you
i have used my last known alibi

you said the first word i ever heard
you're the first thing i ever cared about
the first eyes i ever looked into
for the first time i feel like i am waking up
for the first time i feel like i am come unstuck
for the first time i feel like this is the one for me and you

when i fell to the curbside you found me
fed me soup from a breadbowl and made me tea
you always sleep by my side
because you know we all fall down sometimes
we all fall down sometimes

Saturday, December 5, 2009

my life is an ongoing experiment in bad decisions.

andrea and i were talking about this in costco today. it's so true. sometimes you just need to do it. also we went to the ballroom dance concert at uvu. it was super weird watching it and not being in it. i really miss dancing. i'm glad that i'll be able to next semester. hopefully my health stops being a jerk.

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www.nataliedee.com

again!


i am not invisible. i am a real live girl with real live feelings that, shock of shocks, can get hurt. i don't disappear when you ignore me or push me away. that might be easier for you, but it sure as hell isn't easy for me. i hate walking on eggshells and being pushed away and not talked to. this, this right here is why i was alone. this is why i don't do things with people, why i don't want anyone to know where my house is. being lonely is a whole lot easier when it's consistent loneliness. this is a damn mess. i have no idea where i stand with you. if you don't want to be with me, if it's too hard-tell me. don't keep picking me up and then throwing me down. i am a person and i deserve the respect of at least being communicated with. and i'm tired. i. am. tired. i'm tired of having my heart ache. of crying myself to sleep because you're so hot and cold with me. this isn't fair. either you're in or you're out. you need to decide. because i care about you a lot. i think this could be great. but right now i need to care about myself more and if you're not all the way in, then get the hell out.

Friday, December 4, 2009

i'd like to live with you in an igloo.

today was a weird day. right now i'm tired and cold. i'm going to bed...

Thursday, December 3, 2009

14 degrees? you have got to be kidding me.

i'm just about psychologied out. i read over 100 pages of my psych textbook and took exam 2 (82%-not too shabby). tomorrow's plan is 2 two page papers and at least one (if not two) chapters for exam three. think i can do it? i do.

here's a fun little fact about me: the movie war of the worlds freaks me the heck out. it is so scary to me. i can't even watch the little promos for it during commercial breaks on bones. thank goodness for dvr:)


Wednesday, December 2, 2009

penguin pajama pants w/ pockets....possibly pure perfection

so i was watching so you think you can dance and there was some okay stuff...and then i was like, 'what?!?!??!!?'





holy awesome.

and you know what? i'm a little in love with jakob. he's adorable.
[i feel like he might like boys, but he blows my mind.]


Tuesday, December 1, 2009

rabbit rabbit (already? november flew by!)

the nataliedee site is down. i'm freaking out.

did you know that you can identify time of death from the vitreous humor (liquid in the eye)? the things you can learn from watching bones:)

my birthday is in less than two weeks, can you believe it?! for my birthday i would like two have like a two week medically induced coma where my body magically cures itself. or harry potter 7 in hardcover. or a thousand dollars. or a dog (to be more specific-ced).

you know what i want right now? fries. probably from either my school's cafeteria or the hospital.

Monday, November 30, 2009

i want a dog.

attention everyone:

you all need to call andrea and listen to her voice mail.

additionally:

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www.nataliedee.com

[i think this is tied to those nightmares.]

Sunday, November 29, 2009

happy 100th post blog- you don't look a day over brand new.

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www.nataliedee.com

[seriously. it's the freakiest thing ever. i wake up almost crying and in a panic every time.]

Saturday, November 28, 2009

i totally almost bought a completely superfluous bottle of cold syrup.

well, my knee is feeling a lot better today, so that's good. especially great is the fact that my kneecap is in the right place.

i didn't go home today like i had planned because of all the craziness with my knee. so now i'm heading home tomorrow.

basically i'm exhausted. who'da thunk a vacation would be so exhausting, huh?

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www.nataliedee.com

[i might've done this comic before, but i've got psychology on my mind...:) ]

Friday, November 27, 2009

what the tonya harding

so i totally screwed up my knee today. did it happen in kickball? black friday craziness? dancing?

nope.

i was sitting on the couch watching a movie with my family. i had my feet up on the coffee table, just relaxing when my knees started feeling a little hyperextended. i started to take them off the coffee table and the tendon in my left knee twisted way weird to the outside of my knee. it was excruciating and i couldn't straighten my leg. it's been 5 hours and i can straighten it a little, but it looks disgusting. my knee cap is crooked and the tendon looks super jacked. a doctor in my parents ward is going to come look at it tomorrow morning (adios leaving tomorrow at 9 am) and hook us up with an orthopedic doctor if need be.

moral of the story: my body is awesome this semester. additionally, it hates me.

Thursday, November 26, 2009

happy turkey day

it's a great day for america everybody...well, good for the platinum platypi:) that's right, kickball was incredible and my team won! no broken limbs or crying kids or anything-a first!

plus, the turkey teresa made was the best turkey ever. very juicy and yumm-o.

tomorrow we will be massacring target. watch out.

additionally, steph is real cool. you guys don't even know.

Wednesday, November 25, 2009

did that guys face just melt off?!

today ended up being waaay better than i was expecting:)

cleaned the hapt, snuggled ily, drove home with sara, bowling with danny, jaz & steph, almost got an oreo shake & got addicted to fringe.

holla.

Tuesday, November 24, 2009

i feel like throwing up all my guts. i'm just sayin.

guess what: i have two and a half pages of my four page paper written.

goals before i leave for home tomorrow so i can just worry about wasting at kickball and just being awesome in general:
1. finish said paper tonight
2. clean room
3. do laundry
4. do something fun with friends tonight
5. not kill anyone/myself

(those are actually in order)

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www.nataliedee.com

[lol-what?! :)]

Monday, November 23, 2009

just another manic monday

just watched 'kramer vs kramer' for my film class. whoa. great acting, but super sad:(

toadie might come home with me for thanksgiving!!! cross your fingers:)

1. i have amazing home teachers
2. my dad
3. toadie
4. my car is working
5. i'll be home in less than 48 hours.


Sunday, November 22, 2009

sunday is apparently brain explodation day. did you celebrate?

i read a book once (shocking i know-read? me?) and when the main character would get upset, she would think of 5 good things in her life and it would calm her down. i'm going to give it a shot...

1. i get to go home for thanksgiving in 3 days
2. baby ily
3. i gained 3 pounds (normally would be way sucky, but i've been super sick and losing a ton of weight, so...)
4. i've been out of hibernation for a whole month (and don't hate it at all-thanks)
5. my hair is getting long

Saturday, November 21, 2009

so...tired...can't...blog...

i am for reals so tired tonight that nothing i'm thinking is making sense except getting warm in my nice comfy bed, closing my eyes, and drifting away...

zzzzz....................

Friday, November 20, 2009

[heart in your hand]

i get to see 5/7 of my family tomorrow!!! i can't even wait :) i hope everyone is excited for the 2 cans of cranberry sauce i am bringing to fake thanksgiving tomorrow. it will be the most delish cranberry sauce you've ever eaten, promise.

saw new moon today with brandon [who sorta looks like jasper sometimes. we decided he should be his stunt double] for his birthday [happy happy, btw;) ]. it was okay. it's probably my least favorite of the books, (just because it's only about feelings and there's not much action), and that was hard to translate into movie form. but it was okay. the girls behind us were super obnox.

wellp, that's about all. if you're going to the byu game tomorrow, park at my house-$5! pass it on.



cool.

Thursday, November 19, 2009

[paso doble]



cool:)

i got a sweet bloody nose, a b on a test, and a new phone today. productive, eh?


Wednesday, November 18, 2009

[whatcha say]



so cool. i didn't really like her at first but she's gotten better. and he's just ridiculous.

another cool fact: i have 23 days left of being 23.

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

[ryan and ellenore]



this is maybe my favorite dance ever. i'm completely in love with it. watch at 1:38, she just jumps without abandon. sigh. and the song...

Monday, November 16, 2009

[moose]



i got a b+ on a test today! are you proud of me?

Sunday, November 15, 2009

Saturday, November 14, 2009

introducing cool dance week! [the bed dance]

upon recommendation from nolan's erin:



wow.

[normally not a john mayer fan, but i do kinda like this song. don't judge.]

Friday, November 13, 2009

oh my gosh, bones is sooooo good.



i could watch this commercial for days-i love it. look at the little girl!!!

[today was pretty rough. thanks for the ily medicine jon and emme. you guys are the bestest :) ]

Thursday, November 12, 2009

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

dude i can totally see your tail.

today i had a coma. i'm feeling better throw up wise, but i'm so lethargic. it's so weird. what is wrong with me people?! i decided i can't worry about classes this semester. i'll get what i get and i won't throw a fit. worst comes to worst i'll retake a class. nbd. (that's what i have to keep telling myself anyways.)

cross your fingers i don't have a coma again tomorrow. i really need to go to class!!!

ps. who needs a ride to st. george for thanksgiving?

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

zzzzz...

today was a good day, but i sure am tired. sorry friends, you're not going to get much from me tonight. now if you'll excuse me, i have to get some sleep-i have a test to bomb tomorrow.

Monday, November 9, 2009

baby ily is here!

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www.nataliedee.com

[and she does not look like the baby in the comic. she is a tiny little perfect human. congrats jon and emme! a+ procreation.]

Sunday, November 8, 2009

i had way too much time alone today.

i have so many ideas in my head, i can't believe they all fit in there. case in point: careoke. kareoke for your car. who doesn't love to just sing their face off in the car? you'd just need a microphone type thing that would transmit your voice over the speakers. how fun would this make roadtrips?

things that make me mad:
*when anything goes moldy before it's supposed to.
*cold showers
*when people don't use their blinkers
*people that ask "who's going to be there" when i invite them to do something
*when people say stupid comments during lectures at school

Saturday, November 7, 2009

so you think you can dance (dance)



[he is her fear. oh my gosh. i can't even describe how this dance makes me feel-i feel it on so many different levels.]

Life is not a spectator sport. Win, lose, or draw, the game is on. So go ahead... argue with the ref, change the rules, cheat a little, take a break and tend to your wounds. But play. Play. Play hard, play fast... play loose and free. Play as if there's no tomorrow. Okay, so it's not whether you win or lose, it's how you play the game... right?

[i freaking love grey's.]

Friday, November 6, 2009

smooth rides make boring stories. a little calamity-that's worth talking about

i totally forgot how much i love grey's anatomy.



[watch meredith's face while they're running-priceless]

Thursday, November 5, 2009

pretend that it's the weekend

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our water heater is broken:( boo for freezing showers!

Wednesday, November 4, 2009

booth and bones just need to kiss already!

so as you may or may not know (i've been saying stuff like that a lot), i've been super sick lately. i was finally able to get into the doctor's today and they drew my blood :( apparently i'm super dehydrated so it took ten minutes. my arm hurts sooo bad :( i find out what's wrong with me in a day or two. i almost fainted when they took my blood so they gave me some juice-strawberry kiwi. so my mouth felt super weird/itchy (allergic to strawberries)

so that was pretty sucky. but i got to spend the whole day resting, sleeping, and watching bones. and someone was awfully nice to me. so not a total loss... :)




Tuesday, November 3, 2009

i feel like i never stop doing dishes

it's true. it's the nature of them though i guess. at least now our kitchen is clean and doesn't smell funky.

and did you know you can eat food at the hospital? like as a normal person, not as a patient or visitor. it's cheap and delicious. apparently i'm the only one that didn't know you could do this.

Monday, November 2, 2009

deep thoughts

here are some thoughts i thinked today

*brain: i am not going to miss any more school. i couldn't have prevented being sick and missing so much, so whatever happens will just happen. and i'm going to be okay with it. the best i can do is the best i can do.
*creepy guy at kangaroo zoo: i don't know you. don't talk to me like you know me. or touch me. ew.
*jaylyn: you should have a blog. i would enjoy reading your thoughts. and it's your birthday in 2 days!!!
*brandon: 7-0. you up for a rematch?
*?: called it. (eyes rolled)
*body: thank you for not feeling like barfing anymore. however, this throat tickle thing has got to go.
*bed: you look lonely. i would love nothing more than to keep you company for the next seven and a half hours.

[note to readers: i thought more than this, this was just some thoughts. just fyi:) ]

Sunday, November 1, 2009

rabbit rabbit

so basically i'm obsessed with these songs. you should/will be too.





so far i'm in love with november. beautiful day, feeling good, yummy food, good company...

Friday, October 30, 2009

i ate food today!

steak quesadillas with black beans and dressing & pizza.

woo!!!

Thursday, October 29, 2009

best/worst week ever

best: i've been more social in the past week than i have been...idk, the entire fall semester. plus part of summer. and maybe spring. meeting great new people :) , hanging out with friends, actually leaving my house, actually showing people where my house is located...

worst: i've been way freaking sick all week. i haven't been to school since monday. i'm okay if i'm sitting or laying down or not moving fast, but if i have to stand or walk much, i'm out. i blacked out in the shower wednesday (upside of a tiny shower: nothing to hit your head on when you fall. you just kinda slump over.) i feel too sick to eat, which makes me feel even sicker because i'm starving (literally starving-i've lost 8 pounds in a week. not cool body, not cool.), so then i'm all shaky and woozy. on the plus side, everyone's being really nice to me even my teachers. and i'm going to the doctor's on monday, so hopefully they'll be all 'here's some sweet drugs that you can have for free' or something. i would even get a shot. can't say i won't cry, but i would let them do it if it would fix me.

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

dos tres!!!

happy b-day toadie!!! proud of you. stay classy.

Monday, October 26, 2009

happy birthday yaya



i get to sign up for classes tomorrow!!!!

look who's eleven today! [looks like someone didn't get the memo about not being cuter than me and jaz. you're making us look bad-geez ;) ]

Sunday, October 25, 2009

Saturday, October 24, 2009

this is the kind of insurance i have


[edited a little, click on it for the real one. love nataliedee!]

Friday, October 23, 2009

mouthbreathers are the worst

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seriously. sound + bad breath smell = breathe with your freaking nose

ps. andrea- we now own a stapler (!)

Thursday, October 22, 2009

Wednesday, October 21, 2009

my motto

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www.nataliedee.com
[title: if i'm not huggin ya don't stand close enough for me to hug ya.]

now if you'll excuse me, i'm going to go cry myself to sleep.

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

it's a good day for america everybody

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this also applies to coats, which is why when i found a nice warm parka type coat (with a hood!) at costco today, i couldn't resist. (it also helps that i love sweet deals. $50 for a brand name down coat? yes please.) i will officially be warm and not get snow directly in my eyeballs this winter.

Monday, October 19, 2009

gold star for moi

worked out today! i've been putting it off til "tomorrow" since...well, since i went to dixie and was in fitness center and it was for a grade. (ie. 18 months ago) 25 minutes on a 13% incline. proud of myself.

our toilet has been flushing for 16 minutes now...the record is 37. is tonight the night to set a new record? you can do it potty; i believe in you.

oh hey, psych homework. i'm going to punch you right in the face tomorrow. just fyi.

Sunday, October 18, 2009

home!

back home after an awesome vacation to st george to see my family. they are doing great:)

oh btw, michael buble: i would like to marry you. when's a good time for you?



[clearly this song is about me.]

Friday, October 16, 2009

bum bum be dum bum bum be dum dum

disturbia is stuck in my head. i should watch the movie.



should i take jazz next semester? i really want to but i'm torn...it would make things easier for work but i really need to dance. [i'm already taking silver standard and hip hop.] what say you?

Thursday, October 15, 2009

Wednesday, October 14, 2009

three hours and twenty minutes-a new world record!

i'm home!!! it feels delicious down here, i love it:) also, i am officially exhausted.

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

andrea literally scared the pee outta me tonight.

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www.nataliedee.com

i will be home in : t minus 24 hours


tribute:

in my head you will always be like 7


Monday, October 12, 2009

worst. day. ever.

i don't want to talk about it. boo today.

Sunday, October 11, 2009

stupid throat.

still killing me. boo:(

so you know how i'm like ocd about planning? well, i really really really want to plan out next semester (you know, classes and such) and all the classes aren't up yet. it's killing me! we can sign up officially oct. 26th, and it's supposed to be up two weeks before so i really hope that tomorrow everything's up. i hate not having a plan. and you all know how impatient i tend to be...

tribute:

this is my favorite picture of stephanie holm:



she is really cool and lives in hawaii. i am super excited to get to know her better, she is already a baer family favorite. can't wait to be bff's:)


ps. so i heard coach cody got arrested for sexual assault of minors. class of 2004, are we surprised? um....nope.

Saturday, October 10, 2009

curse you sore throat

i feel like someone put a knife in my mouth and cut the inside of my throat. [wow, that was a lot more graphic and gross sounding than i wanted it to be. oh well.] it hurts! swallowing is the devil. i want to drink some chloraseptic but i won't. i established a few years ago that no matter how bad your throat hurts, doing that is a bad idea.

tribute hiaku:

used to hate your guts
now we are the best of friends
isn't life funny?



Friday, October 9, 2009

gummy bear heart- mmm, delicious

so at cafe rio lunch today with chris (thanks again for lunch!), guess who we saw. oh don't worry, just jeffrey r. holland. in cafe rio. crazy!!

i saw this today. hilarious.

also: applause for my mom, she knows how to do comments now! to commemorate this awesome event you should all make a comment. no, seriously. i want to know who reads this. tell ya what, i will do a special post about anyone that comments.

deal?

Thursday, October 8, 2009

i will never have this problem

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because i have a child size head. yay for being a baer!

today: 100% on an exam, delish doughnut, work, finally finish paper!, study for scary exam tomorrow, cereal, bed.

tomorrow: 9 am class cancelled, no breakfast with brad cuz he's a psycho and running 100 miles in vegas, writing lab to make sure paper is perfect (no 17/20 crap this time), take scary test, cafe with chris, work (kz or cloudy with a chance of meatballs?), psych homework when the kiddies are asleep, bed.

phew. i get tired just looking at that...

Wednesday, October 7, 2009

take that rewind it back

today was weird. some really good stuff happened (slept in my awesome new bed, lunch with meem and pop, got a bunch of homework done) and some weird/bad/upsetting stuff happened (won't go into that). and because i was in a weird mood, i took it out on everyone else. so to everyone that came into contact with me today:

sorry i was a bratface and not patient. it wasn't your fault that i was bugged. i need to be a grown up and suck it up and sometimes that's hard. so i'm sorry. i hope you can forgive me.

i feel super guilty. the person i need to apologize to the most won't even see this, so i'll have to tell them tomorrow...ugh. thinking about it just makes me feel like i'm getting stabbed in the heart. i need to go to sleep. sorry this was a downer today:( had to get it off my chest.

Tuesday, October 6, 2009

oh no.

today was pretty good until i thought i'd tweeze my eyebrows. now they look so uneven. i am mortified. contemplating putting bandaids over them for school tomorrow...

Monday, October 5, 2009

i was a little smart today

second best grade on a test? i believe i'll treat myself to some new boots. they look like this, only they are black. i already have brown ones [and the oatmeal/tan ones are lookin pretty enticing]. i had them last year but because i'm a shuffler instead of a normal human being, the tread on the bottom is ridiculous-waaaay worn all across but all the way through on the inside of the heels. this makes me feel concerned about what i look like when i walk...



[suckers: i bought mine for $34.99. yay costco! also-hello, i totally didn't realize you could fold them down like that! adorb. think i may have to try it out.]


Sunday, October 4, 2009

do you

need a ride to st george for uea? come with me!
also: look at this picture.


this is from when i went to the byu/u of u game with chris last year. i almost got beat up for cheering for byu. then we lost and i was sad. he is new to reading my blog so here's his shoutout-boo u of u. and yankees. :) and everyone look at my hair please. it is adorable short. i feel like i want to cut it. convince me not to please!!!

Saturday, October 3, 2009

i bought

a mattress today! finally!!! and it was on sale-$180 for a full mattress that doesn't completely suck. i mean, it's no vera wang, but it'll do. pretty stoked.

also: got caught up on my tivo'd so you think you can dance. wow. blowing my mind!! can't wait to see the salt lake auditions!!!

Friday, October 2, 2009

i need

a personal trainer. i feel just way gross and i feel like i don't have the self-control to make myself work out. and i don't eat healthy at all. i'm picky and lazy. so i need a nutritionist too. but i don't have money. so i need them for free. anyone want to offer their services? we could do a trade. my offers: 1-laundry, 2-house cleaning, 3-type your papers (not write, just type & edit), 4-decorate your house, 5-plan your parties. i am real good at all that stuff.

any takers?

Thursday, October 1, 2009

Wednesday, September 30, 2009

ideas

lately i've been hearing some pretty good ideas. here are some i would like to incorporate into my life:

*my civ professor's mom used to wake up on random days and say "it's my birthday" and they would celebrate and have a party. sometimes you just want to feel special and i think this is a gem.
*my home teacher from when i was about 7 took a picture of his kids on the doorstep every single sunday before church. he has one on their family room wall that is just perfection, so candid and personal.


Tuesday, September 29, 2009

once upon a time...

if i were one of the seven dwarfs, which one would i be?

hint: zzzzzzzz.............


Monday, September 28, 2009

getting nervous...

midterms are almost upon me! starting to worry...

in happier news: i get to go home in 15 days 18 hours and 46 minutes...give or take a little;)

can't wait!!!

Sunday, September 27, 2009

curse my days.

i had a great sunday. got caught up on some dwts (love kelly osbourne-totally surprised) and just had a nice relaxing day.


Saturday, September 26, 2009

oh oh oh

first the orig

[what is up with disabling embeds. rude.]







and the justin timberlake snl version [sorry i couldn't put the video on here-also it's a funky russian/georgian version because it was the only one with the full skit. embrace the weirdness.]


Friday, September 25, 2009

i may be over qualified.

http://provo.craigslist.org/dmg/1391464094.html

also: park at my house for the game tomorrow- $5 [total steal; down the street it's $25 which = redonk.]

Thursday, September 24, 2009

i've gotta feeling

done. also: another 100% test! i am quite the busy bee this semester.

right now i'm reading a book that compares najinski's 'rite of spring' ballet to world war one. it's making my brain explode a little.

ps. anyone going to the byu game this weekend can park at my house for $5. pass it on.

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

i am...

tired to the max. but also almost caught up with homework. mostly it's just psych stuff now, but that's a self paced course so there's a little leeway.

random thought for the day: i think i might be developing a few medical conditions. they are:

1-alzheimers: or maybe another word for not remembering stuff and having way crappy spelling all of a sudden. i put e's on the end of everything and stick random letters in where they don't belong. and the worst part is i don't even care to fix it most of the time. the only time i make the effort to do so is in this blog. so you're welcome. (seriously, sometimes it takes like 8 tries to spell an easy word.)

2-adult onset add: i can't focus on anything anymore. if someone's talking while a teacher is talking i can't focus on either and my brain just freaks out. i used to be able to watch tv and do homework or whatever, stuff like that, and now i can't focus at all.

3-super bad anxietyness: i just freak out about stuff. a lot. i'll start worrying about something and then it spirals out of control and i have to call my mom and confirm that yes, she knows that rayne is a small human being and no, they don't have to put him out for a minor dental procedure so there won't be any adverse side-effects/death from anesthesia. i think he was having a tooth pulled or something. i cried about it. so now my family doesn't tell me when major things are happening. this doesn't help. [sidebar: dad-don't ever get a freaking bone graft and go back to work AND NOT TELL YOUR WIFE AND DAUGHTER AND OTHER VARIOUS FAMILY MEMBERS. Glad to know you were driving after being under, and don't act like those dental drugs aren't sweet mind blowers. gosh.]

4-insomnia: well, i've pretty much always had this, but it's been pretty bad lately. as in, not falling asleep while lying in an almost completely darkened room for two hours, then waking up in half hour increments. what is wrong with you brain?

5-never feeling full/feeling like i'm going to barf all the time: seriously? not a good combination.


that's all. what can you recommend? anyone? bueller? bueller?

ps. please leave comments. it makes me feel like i matter. [jaylyn and my mom: i'm talking to you. well, and everyone else.]

the ende.

Monday, September 21, 2009

tear.

just watched unstrung heroes for my film class. so good. i can't really describe it. just rent and watch it. i love quirky characters.

also: i've noticed that when i meet new people i do one of two things.
1. talk uncontrollably. it's like verbal vomit. and i always feel like i'm a me monster and i feel stupid. i don't mean to talk about myself, i just get nervous and can't stop talking.
2. get really uncomfortable and quiet.

i can't decide which is worse.

Sunday, September 20, 2009

in ancient greece it was rude to eat in public.

i finally found my new ward! i like it a lot. i think it's the most...mormon-y ward i've ever been in. i felt like i was in the movie 'single's ward'. awesome.

took a great nap today on the brown couch. i love that couch. and it loves me.

i've gotta feeling that this week is going to be pretty rough...

gasp

Saturday, September 19, 2009

tonight at maceys

what in the world was going on at macey's tonight?! everyone there was on a date in official byu apparel. doesn't seem that romantic to me, but clearly i'm no expert in that department. maybe to fix this i need to get a bunch of byu crap and hang out in macey's.

i did see a very handsome boy though, with another boy i'm crossing fingers was a roommate. too scared to go up and talk to him, even with danny's "where's the sobes" line. i hope it's like serendipity and we meet and fall in love. we could name our kid macey.

Friday, September 18, 2009

top notch job bran. all is forgiven.


how does randomly receiving $213.89 feel?


[note: i edited this a little bit, click on the picture if you want to see the real one. all credit goes to nataliedee.com <- genius!! she makes my day every day for realsies....i don't know if you could tell from past blogs...;) ]

Thursday, September 17, 2009

got a 100% on a test today!!!

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nataliedee.com

i laughed sooooo hard at this. you're welcome.