this is not how my new years went, but someday it will :)
happy new years everybody! may 2010 be the year you've been waiting for. quit sitting on your butt, wishing you had done things and for your life to be a certain way. get out there and live the life you've always wanted. the only one stopping you from having the best year ever is you. good luck and keep me posted on your adventures. i'll sure let you know mine!
fun fact #39: when i was little i was in love with sea otters. one time we went to the monterrey bay aquarium and i stayed at the otter area for like an hour. then my parents wouldn't buy me the most adorable sea otter stuffed animal ever and i was sad. but then somehow i got it. i hope it's because i was good and not that i whined til i got it. my parents didn't really give in to crap like that so i'm pretty sure it's cuz i was good.
also: baby penguins? hello, they are so stinking cute. what if a sea otter and a penguin mated? it would be called...a sea pengott. and its cuteness would blind you.
it was so awesome. the effects were incredible!!! seriously, it'll make all special effects before seem like something your little brother did while dicking around on the computer. we saw it in 3d which made it ever cooler! just try not to sit by some gross old smokers who talk during the entire movie-it'll make it way more enjoyable :)
merry christmas everybody! hope your day was wonderful! mine was pretty great, just really tired cuz i didn't go to sleep last night. however, i did get to build an entertainment center, so that was fun :) i really like building stuff-it makes me feel good. anyways. great christmas!
fun fact #9: when i get mad, my mouth gets really really small. as in, you almost can't see it small.
this is my family at christmas. we love each other so much that we want to kill each other a little bit on christmas. it's kind funny, but i hate it at the same time. hopefully tomorrow will be better :)
merry christmas eve everybody. and to all a good night.
after driving back up to provo at six in the morning on scary snowy roads, two ultrasounds, one ct-scan (complete with injection of contrast that makes you feel like you're eating metal and about to pee your pants & drinking a huge thing of another contrast thing that tastes like funky, chunky berry-ish milk), and four hours in a freezing cold waiting room, i have great news on the health front everybody: i don't have cancer, pancreatitis, or gall stones. which is wonderful, immensely relieving news. what's sucky news is that they still don't know what's wrong with me. stab in the dark at bacterial stomach infection which = two weeks of antibiotics. and everyone keeps making me feel stupid and saying it's probably just anxiety.
it's not just anxiety.
but all the same, hopefully the antibiotics work. i'm so sick so sick of feeling tired and oh so tired feeling sick.
three cheers to my mom for driving up and back with me, she is the best mom on earth!
changed my facebook status, let's haaaaave a dtrrrrrrr, he didn't call, three french kisses, something something something, and a ticket to the dollar movie.
i was just thinking today that whenever life gets crappy, i just need to think: at least a crazy lady didn't come to my house, drug me, and then steal my baby out of my stomach like on private practice. that shiz is crrrrzzzy.
so jazmin's ugly sweater christmas party was tonight and it was really fun! everyone came in their ugly swag and played games and had a great time. my sweater was child size so that was most excellent. anyways, a+ shindig jazi jaz. bravo.
also: i am very exhausted. so this is a short post. my apologies...
i'm finally home! i drove home this morning and got here around 3. then i played the prelude/wedding march at stephbax's wedding. it went pretty well i think :) when i play in front of large groups of people i get really nervous and my hands get freezing cold and shakey. i had a couple of tiny messups, but i think i'm the only one that noticed. it was a really nice ceremony...
today's been kind of a rough day-i feel super nauseous (which is pretty much the norm for me for the last 2 months unfortunately) and my brain feels like it's going to explode. so...that stinks:( hopefully it goes away while i'm sleeping!
also i learned a new game called scrud. you play it on a pool table and it is way fun. i am really bad at it though. to the point where we made a special rule that should have made me win but still was the first one out haha!
fun fact #496: sometimes when i'm driving, i make up poems in my head. they are usually not nice. or very good. haha :) here's one i 'wrote' the other day...
(composed on i-15 between university parkway and american fork main street.)
in the land of passive aggressive you are the king the crap that you pulled was the stupidest thing i ever have seen it really was mean
i now feel invisible it's stupid and pitiful
i'm sick and tired of feeling this way it hurts and it's lonely and totally gay so if you're an a-hole just please stay away thank you and have a very nice day.
the end.
you're welcome for enriching your life just now. also, that was edited because my mom reads this and i told her i wouldn't say anything too bad...
thanks to mallory for this (arrow pointing down)
seriously, best mix you've ever made me. i can't get this song out of my head. love it and you.
fun fact about me #64: i know the lyrics to almost every weird al song by heart. the very first weird al song i heard was 'trigger happy' on a mix tape made by the gibbs family for the first baer trip from san jose to utah. it's been true love ever since. here's to you al.
monday - take history 2700 final 11-1, work from 3 to whenever, study for history 2710 final & psychology tuesday - take history 2710 final 9-11, study psychology, work @ 3 and sleep over wednesday - take psychology final, work 3 to whenever thursday - take film final early in the day so the testing center isn't completely ridiculous, work from 3 to whenever (last day=weird) friday - go home!!!! early morning, practice with nolan when i get home, play stephbax wedding at 5ish saturday - don't worry about anything anymore, do whatever i want.
so if you want to play with me before 2010, you better get on it, cuz i leave in 5 days!!!
i had a great day just hanging out with danny today. first he made me breakfast (at noon, still counts). it was this taiwanese thing that he loved on his mission. i was a little nervous because soy sauce in the morning? really could go either way...but it was stinking delicious!!! they are called danbing. in chinese it looks like this: 蛋餅 very yummy! then we did a little christmas shopping, that was a lot of fun. we finished up with some five guys burgers and fries for dinner and rented 'the brothers bloom'. i liked it a lot, it kinda reminded me of 'the wendall baker story'. just kinda quirky. i would recommend it.
it's been so fun having danny up here the past couple days, i'm really glad he was able to come. he's one of my best friends in the whole world and it's been awesome having him all to myself:) i'm so excited to go home for christmas!!! four finals and five days...i can make it!
andrea and jon ware are some of my favorite people in the whole wide world. andrea is the queen of curses. and pedi-smiles.
me and danny!
my roommate teddy roosevelt
me and teddy, just moustachein around
em & adorby ily!
ily is my favorite baby ever
i got to see mal at the mall for a second, then she drove home and ran a 5k in the snow. cuz you're not hardcore unless you live hardcore.
thanks to everyone who made my birthday so special! we started out the evening with dinner at california pizza kitchen (andrea and i had tostada pizza-yum!) which was sooo fun. then we came back to the hapt and played ninja (apparently i'm dumber than a child cuz i couldn't understand how to play), silent football, and curses. we also ate my ninja turtle cake and i opened some presents. it was a really fun night and it was so fun seeing everyone! i love all y'all:)
i really love ingrid michaelson. everything about her is great. she writes her own songs with great lyrics, she plays her own stuff and her voice is awesome. i discovered this song on pandora the other day and it's been stuck in my head for a few days. she is just way cool:)
additionally: my brother is here!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i'm going to try the 5 things that are going good thing again...
1-i have the best friends in the world a-i live with the best roommate/best friend a girl could ask for. seriously. she even wrote me a song and decorated our dryer to make me feel better. how many people can say that? b-emme and jon let me come over at all hours of the night (and morning) to sob on their couch and let me hold their baby. c- jay, mal, nolan, steph: i know you guys have my back no matter what, threats and plots of attack included :) d-danny and jaz: best friends forever (literally, we're sealed:) ) 2-i'm pretty sure ily and i are psychically linked. so sorry she had a rough night last night too em...seriously though, baby ily is like medicine for me. even if i'm completely freaking out, holding her makes me feel like everything is going to be okay. 3-i got my birthday off of school and work 4-the utah state senate is making it possible for me to go see a specialist. maybe i'll vote next year as a thank you. 5-i have the most supportive parents ever that are always trying to remind/convince me that i matter. and that life will get better.
so friday night brandon opened for david hopkins at velour. musically, it was a great night. i really liked david hopkins. this song has been on my mind so i thought i'd share it with you. it's not the best recording, but it was the only version i could find on youtube.
there was a man who was taken down from a position of respect in a new york town he always thought he was one step out ahead with a long history of recklessness he went down kicking screaming in a prostitution mess scientists and politicos analyzed it with his wife to his right he apologized she was choking on tears i could see her eyes but she stood by his side she knows we all fall down sometimes
there was a strange case in wichita the police the sheriff and a little crowbar and a little crowd of fascinated media and when they put the question to that man he said that 'real life love doesn't make no plan' he said that 'real life love doesn't take anything for granted' she would rather be dead than face her fears locked herself in the bathroom for two years but he stood by her side cuz he knows we all fall down sometimes
i ain't (i can't understand what he says here) just because you survive don't make you strong i cast the first stone at you i have used my last known alibi
you said the first word i ever heard you're the first thing i ever cared about the first eyes i ever looked into for the first time i feel like i am waking up for the first time i feel like i am come unstuck for the first time i feel like this is the one for me and you
when i fell to the curbside you found me fed me soup from a breadbowl and made me tea you always sleep by my side because you know we all fall down sometimes we all fall down sometimes
andrea and i were talking about this in costco today. it's so true. sometimes you just need to do it. also we went to the ballroom dance concert at uvu. it was super weird watching it and not being in it. i really miss dancing. i'm glad that i'll be able to next semester. hopefully my health stops being a jerk.
i am not invisible. i am a real live girl with real live feelings that, shock of shocks, can get hurt. i don't disappear when you ignore me or push me away. that might be easier for you, but it sure as hell isn't easy for me. i hate walking on eggshells and being pushed away and not talked to. this, this right here is why i was alone. this is why i don't do things with people, why i don't want anyone to know where my house is. being lonely is a whole lot easier when it's consistent loneliness. this is a damn mess. i have no idea where i stand with you. if you don't want to be with me, if it's too hard-tell me. don't keep picking me up and then throwing me down. i am a person and i deserve the respect of at least being communicated with. and i'm tired. i. am. tired. i'm tired of having my heart ache. of crying myself to sleep because you're so hot and cold with me. this isn't fair. either you're in or you're out. you need to decide. because i care about you a lot. i think this could be great. but right now i need to care about myself more and if you're not all the way in, then get the hell out.
i'm just about psychologied out. i read over 100 pages of my psych textbook and took exam 2 (82%-not too shabby). tomorrow's plan is 2 two page papers and at least one (if not two) chapters for exam three. think i can do it? i do.
here's a fun little fact about me: the movie war of the worlds freaks me the heck out. it is so scary to me. i can't even watch the little promos for it during commercial breaks on bones. thank goodness for dvr:)
did you know that you can identify time of death from the vitreous humor (liquid in the eye)? the things you can learn from watching bones:)
my birthday is in less than two weeks, can you believe it?! for my birthday i would like two have like a two week medically induced coma where my body magically cures itself. or harry potter 7 in hardcover. or a thousand dollars. or a dog (to be more specific-ced).
you know what i want right now? fries. probably from either my school's cafeteria or the hospital.
so i totally screwed up my knee today. did it happen in kickball? black friday craziness? dancing?
nope.
i was sitting on the couch watching a movie with my family. i had my feet up on the coffee table, just relaxing when my knees started feeling a little hyperextended. i started to take them off the coffee table and the tendon in my left knee twisted way weird to the outside of my knee. it was excruciating and i couldn't straighten my leg. it's been 5 hours and i can straighten it a little, but it looks disgusting. my knee cap is crooked and the tendon looks super jacked. a doctor in my parents ward is going to come look at it tomorrow morning (adios leaving tomorrow at 9 am) and hook us up with an orthopedic doctor if need be.
moral of the story: my body is awesome this semester. additionally, it hates me.
it's a great day for america everybody...well, good for the platinum platypi:) that's right, kickball was incredible and my team won! no broken limbs or crying kids or anything-a first!
plus, the turkey teresa made was the best turkey ever. very juicy and yumm-o.
tomorrow we will be massacring target. watch out.
additionally, steph is real cool. you guys don't even know.
guess what: i have two and a half pages of my four page paper written.
goals before i leave for home tomorrow so i can just worry about wasting at kickball and just being awesome in general: 1. finish said paper tonight 2. clean room 3. do laundry 4. do something fun with friends tonight 5. not kill anyone/myself
i read a book once (shocking i know-read? me?) and when the main character would get upset, she would think of 5 good things in her life and it would calm her down. i'm going to give it a shot...
1. i get to go home for thanksgiving in 3 days 2. baby ily 3. i gained 3 pounds (normally would be way sucky, but i've been super sick and losing a ton of weight, so...) 4. i've been out of hibernation for a whole month (and don't hate it at all-thanks) 5. my hair is getting long
i am for reals so tired tonight that nothing i'm thinking is making sense except getting warm in my nice comfy bed, closing my eyes, and drifting away...
i get to see 5/7 of my family tomorrow!!! i can't even wait :) i hope everyone is excited for the 2 cans of cranberry sauce i am bringing to fake thanksgiving tomorrow. it will be the most delish cranberry sauce you've ever eaten, promise.
saw new moon today with brandon [who sorta looks like jasper sometimes. we decided he should be his stunt double] for his birthday [happy happy, btw;) ]. it was okay. it's probably my least favorite of the books, (just because it's only about feelings and there's not much action), and that was hard to translate into movie form. but it was okay. the girls behind us were super obnox.
wellp, that's about all. if you're going to the byu game tomorrow, park at my house-$5! pass it on.
today i had a coma. i'm feeling better throw up wise, but i'm so lethargic. it's so weird. what is wrong with me people?! i decided i can't worry about classes this semester. i'll get what i get and i won't throw a fit. worst comes to worst i'll retake a class. nbd. (that's what i have to keep telling myself anyways.)
cross your fingers i don't have a coma again tomorrow. i really need to go to class!!!
ps. who needs a ride to st. george for thanksgiving?
today was a good day, but i sure am tired. sorry friends, you're not going to get much from me tonight. now if you'll excuse me, i have to get some sleep-i have a test to bomb tomorrow.
i have so many ideas in my head, i can't believe they all fit in there. case in point: careoke. kareoke for your car. who doesn't love to just sing their face off in the car? you'd just need a microphone type thing that would transmit your voice over the speakers. how fun would this make roadtrips?
things that make me mad: *when anything goes moldy before it's supposed to. *cold showers *when people don't use their blinkers *people that ask "who's going to be there" when i invite them to do something *when people say stupid comments during lectures at school
[he is her fear. oh my gosh. i can't even describe how this dance makes me feel-i feel it on so many different levels.]
Life is not a spectator sport. Win, lose, or draw, the game is on. So go ahead... argue with the ref, change the rules, cheat a little, take a break and tend to your wounds. But play. Play. Play hard, play fast... play loose and free. Play as if there's no tomorrow. Okay, so it's not whether you win or lose, it's how you play the game... right?
so as you may or may not know (i've been saying stuff like that a lot), i've been super sick lately. i was finally able to get into the doctor's today and they drew my blood :( apparently i'm super dehydrated so it took ten minutes. my arm hurts sooo bad :( i find out what's wrong with me in a day or two. i almost fainted when they took my blood so they gave me some juice-strawberry kiwi. so my mouth felt super weird/itchy (allergic to strawberries)
so that was pretty sucky. but i got to spend the whole day resting, sleeping, and watching bones. and someone was awfully nice to me. so not a total loss... :)
it's true. it's the nature of them though i guess. at least now our kitchen is clean and doesn't smell funky.
and did you know you can eat food at the hospital? like as a normal person, not as a patient or visitor. it's cheap and delicious. apparently i'm the only one that didn't know you could do this.
*brain: i am not going to miss any more school. i couldn't have prevented being sick and missing so much, so whatever happens will just happen. and i'm going to be okay with it. the best i can do is the best i can do. *creepy guy at kangaroo zoo: i don't know you. don't talk to me like you know me. or touch me. ew. *jaylyn: you should have a blog. i would enjoy reading your thoughts. and it's your birthday in 2 days!!! *brandon: 7-0. you up for a rematch? *?: called it. (eyes rolled) *body: thank you for not feeling like barfing anymore. however, this throat tickle thing has got to go. *bed: you look lonely. i would love nothing more than to keep you company for the next seven and a half hours.
[note to readers: i thought more than this, this was just some thoughts. just fyi:) ]
best: i've been more social in the past week than i have been...idk, the entire fall semester. plus part of summer. and maybe spring. meeting great new people :) , hanging out with friends, actually leaving my house, actually showing people where my house is located...
worst: i've been way freaking sick all week. i haven't been to school since monday. i'm okay if i'm sitting or laying down or not moving fast, but if i have to stand or walk much, i'm out. i blacked out in the shower wednesday (upside of a tiny shower: nothing to hit your head on when you fall. you just kinda slump over.) i feel too sick to eat, which makes me feel even sicker because i'm starving (literally starving-i've lost 8 pounds in a week. not cool body, not cool.), so then i'm all shaky and woozy. on the plus side, everyone's being really nice to me even my teachers. and i'm going to the doctor's on monday, so hopefully they'll be all 'here's some sweet drugs that you can have for free' or something. i would even get a shot. can't say i won't cry, but i would let them do it if it would fix me.
this also applies to coats, which is why when i found a nice warm parka type coat (with a hood!) at costco today, i couldn't resist. (it also helps that i love sweet deals. $50 for a brand name down coat? yes please.) i will officially be warm and not get snow directly in my eyeballs this winter.
worked out today! i've been putting it off til "tomorrow" since...well, since i went to dixie and was in fitness center and it was for a grade. (ie. 18 months ago) 25 minutes on a 13% incline. proud of myself.
our toilet has been flushing for 16 minutes now...the record is 37. is tonight the night to set a new record? you can do it potty; i believe in you.
oh hey, psych homework. i'm going to punch you right in the face tomorrow. just fyi.
disturbia is stuck in my head. i should watch the movie.
should i take jazz next semester? i really want to but i'm torn...it would make things easier for work but i really need to dance. [i'm already taking silver standard and hip hop.] what say you?
so you know how i'm like ocd about planning? well, i really really really want to plan out next semester (you know, classes and such) and all the classes aren't up yet. it's killing me! we can sign up officially oct. 26th, and it's supposed to be up two weeks before so i really hope that tomorrow everything's up. i hate not having a plan. and you all know how impatient i tend to be...
tribute:
this is my favorite picture of stephanie holm:
she is really cool and lives in hawaii. i am super excited to get to know her better, she is already a baer family favorite. can't wait to be bff's:)
ps. so i heard coach cody got arrested for sexual assault of minors. class of 2004, are we surprised? um....nope.
i feel like someone put a knife in my mouth and cut the inside of my throat. [wow, that was a lot more graphic and gross sounding than i wanted it to be. oh well.] it hurts! swallowing is the devil. i want to drink some chloraseptic but i won't. i established a few years ago that no matter how bad your throat hurts, doing that is a bad idea.
tribute hiaku:
used to hate your guts now we are the best of friends isn't life funny?
also: applause for my mom, she knows how to do comments now! to commemorate this awesome event you should all make a comment. no, seriously. i want to know who reads this. tell ya what, i will do a special post about anyone that comments.
because i have a child size head. yay for being a baer!
today: 100% on an exam, delish doughnut, work, finally finish paper!, study for scary exam tomorrow, cereal, bed.
tomorrow: 9 am class cancelled, no breakfast with brad cuz he's a psycho and running 100 miles in vegas, writing lab to make sure paper is perfect (no 17/20 crap this time), take scary test, cafe with chris, work (kz or cloudy with a chance of meatballs?), psych homework when the kiddies are asleep, bed.
today was weird. some really good stuff happened (slept in my awesome new bed, lunch with meem and pop, got a bunch of homework done) and some weird/bad/upsetting stuff happened (won't go into that). and because i was in a weird mood, i took it out on everyone else. so to everyone that came into contact with me today:
sorry i was a bratface and not patient. it wasn't your fault that i was bugged. i need to be a grown up and suck it up and sometimes that's hard. so i'm sorry. i hope you can forgive me.
i feel super guilty. the person i need to apologize to the most won't even see this, so i'll have to tell them tomorrow...ugh. thinking about it just makes me feel like i'm getting stabbed in the heart. i need to go to sleep. sorry this was a downer today:( had to get it off my chest.
today was pretty good until i thought i'd tweeze my eyebrows. now they look so uneven. i am mortified. contemplating putting bandaids over them for school tomorrow...
second best grade on a test? i believe i'll treat myself to some new boots. they look like this, only they are black. i already have brown ones [and the oatmeal/tan ones are lookin pretty enticing]. i had them last year but because i'm a shuffler instead of a normal human being, the tread on the bottom is ridiculous-waaaay worn all across but all the way through on the inside of the heels. this makes me feel concerned about what i look like when i walk...
[suckers: i bought mine for $34.99. yay costco! also-hello, i totally didn't realize you could fold them down like that! adorb. think i may have to try it out.]
need a ride to st george for uea? come with me! also: look at this picture.
this is from when i went to the byu/u of u game with chris last year. i almost got beat up for cheering for byu. then we lost and i was sad. he is new to reading my blog so here's his shoutout-boo u of u. and yankees. :) and everyone look at my hair please. it is adorable short. i feel like i want to cut it. convince me not to please!!!
a mattress today! finally!!! and it was on sale-$180 for a full mattress that doesn't completely suck. i mean, it's no vera wang, but it'll do. pretty stoked.
also: got caught up on my tivo'd so you think you can dance. wow. blowing my mind!! can't wait to see the salt lake auditions!!!
a personal trainer. i feel just way gross and i feel like i don't have the self-control to make myself work out. and i don't eat healthy at all. i'm picky and lazy. so i need a nutritionist too. but i don't have money. so i need them for free. anyone want to offer their services? we could do a trade. my offers: 1-laundry, 2-house cleaning, 3-type your papers (not write, just type & edit), 4-decorate your house, 5-plan your parties. i am real good at all that stuff.
lately i've been hearing some pretty good ideas. here are some i would like to incorporate into my life:
*my civ professor's mom used to wake up on random days and say "it's my birthday" and they would celebrate and have a party. sometimes you just want to feel special and i think this is a gem. *my home teacher from when i was about 7 took a picture of his kids on the doorstep every single sunday before church. he has one on their family room wall that is just perfection, so candid and personal.
and the justin timberlake snl version [sorry i couldn't put the video on here-also it's a funky russian/georgian version because it was the only one with the full skit. embrace the weirdness.]
tired to the max. but also almost caught up with homework. mostly it's just psych stuff now, but that's a self paced course so there's a little leeway.
random thought for the day: i think i might be developing a few medical conditions. they are: 1-alzheimers: or maybe another word for not remembering stuff and having way crappy spelling all of a sudden. i put e's on the end of everything and stick random letters in where they don't belong. and the worst part is i don't even care to fix it most of the time. the only time i make the effort to do so is in this blog. so you're welcome. (seriously, sometimes it takes like 8 tries to spell an easy word.)
2-adult onset add: i can't focus on anything anymore. if someone's talking while a teacher is talking i can't focus on either and my brain just freaks out. i used to be able to watch tv and do homework or whatever, stuff like that, and now i can't focus at all.
3-super bad anxietyness: i just freak out about stuff. a lot. i'll start worrying about something and then it spirals out of control and i have to call my mom and confirm that yes, she knows that rayne is a small human being and no, they don't have to put him out for a minor dental procedure so there won't be any adverse side-effects/death from anesthesia. i think he was having a tooth pulled or something. i cried about it. so now my family doesn't tell me when major things are happening. this doesn't help. [sidebar: dad-don't ever get a freaking bone graft and go back to work AND NOT TELL YOUR WIFE AND DAUGHTER AND OTHER VARIOUS FAMILY MEMBERS. Glad to know you were driving after being under, and don't act like those dental drugs aren't sweet mind blowers. gosh.]
4-insomnia: well, i've pretty much always had this, but it's been pretty bad lately. as in, not falling asleep while lying in an almost completely darkened room for two hours, then waking up in half hour increments. what is wrong with you brain?
5-never feeling full/feeling like i'm going to barf all the time: seriously? not a good combination.
that's all. what can you recommend? anyone? bueller? bueller?
ps. please leave comments. it makes me feel like i matter. [jaylyn and my mom: i'm talking to you. well, and everyone else.]
just watched unstrung heroes for my film class. so good. i can't really describe it. just rent and watch it. i love quirky characters.
also: i've noticed that when i meet new people i do one of two things. 1. talk uncontrollably. it's like verbal vomit. and i always feel like i'm a me monster and i feel stupid. i don't mean to talk about myself, i just get nervous and can't stop talking. 2. get really uncomfortable and quiet.
i finally found my new ward! i like it a lot. i think it's the most...mormon-y ward i've ever been in. i felt like i was in the movie 'single's ward'. awesome.
took a great nap today on the brown couch. i love that couch. and it loves me.
i've gotta feeling that this week is going to be pretty rough...
what in the world was going on at macey's tonight?! everyone there was on a date in official byu apparel. doesn't seem that romantic to me, but clearly i'm no expert in that department. maybe to fix this i need to get a bunch of byu crap and hang out in macey's.
i did see a very handsome boy though, with another boy i'm crossing fingers was a roommate. too scared to go up and talk to him, even with danny's "where's the sobes" line. i hope it's like serendipity and we meet and fall in love. we could name our kid macey.
[note: i edited this a little bit, click on the picture if you want to see the real one. all credit goes to nataliedee.com <- genius!! she makes my day every day for realsies....i don't know if you could tell from past blogs...;) ]
