a+ work january. i like your style.

fun fact #429: when i was little, i thought that i was japanese and that my dad had just brought me home with him from his mission. i think it has something to do with my grandma saying i looked like a china doll one time. i don't know. check it out...


i am also starting to get good (read: not as sucky as at christmas/new years) at ninja. coincidence? i think not... ;)

also a know-it-all drunk accosted us by a candy store and told us about how dick cheney was the devil.

so i went to the sundance film festival tonight for the first time. (i loved it.) when jordan told me what film we were seeing ('to catch a dollar'-the preview doesn't do it justice, just fyi.) and told me a little what it was about, all i heard was 'blah blah blah loans blah blah low interest rate blah blah blah', which in my head translates to boooooring.

i was wrong.

oh. my. goodness. it was so excellent. it was interesting, thought provoking, and just a heart-warming film. i know what you're thinking: a documentary about microloans? heart-warming? please.

seriously it was so good. it just makes you want to believe in and help people. it gives you faith in the human race, that someone (muhammad yunus-he won the nobel peace prize and president obama awarded him the presidential medal of freedom. they showed a clip of the latter's ceremony and obama's speech was great. he told a story about how a boy walking on the beach after a storm came upon an old man picking up starfish stranded on the beach after the storm and throwing them back into the sea. the boy said 'why are you doing that-it's a waste of time, there are too many' and the old man looked at the starfish in his hand, threw it back into the sea and said 'it mattered to this one.' total cheese, but i kinda teared up-i was totally moved.) is making a serious difference for people who most everyone has just forgotten about or ignored. he's eliminating poverty. how cool is that? i just wanted to burst into applause several times in the movie, my heart was just overflowing. i realize this sounds all gushy and stupid, but you just have to see it. he's making a difference one person at a time. incredible.

so...so far jordan's like 100% on recommendations for things i think i won't like, but actually love. (examples include but are not limited to: white chocolate raspberry hot coccoa, honey bbq fritos, and 'to catch a dollar'.) i feel like i should just give him carte blanch trust on recommendations now...

paper faces on parade

tonight was a blast! i created mine, emme's & luke's masks, and i'm quite pleased with the results! the only low point of the evening was when, by simply breathing, i ripped the back of my original beautiful (and antique!) green dress :( [hope you can fix it mom! and by fix it, i mean fix and not make it as tight or we'll just have a repeat ten inch hole in the back:(] nevertheless, one quick stop at my house and we were, again, ready to roll! also, shout out to my friend/date luke, who was such a good sport and let me put (very manly) rhinestones and eyeliner on him:)

so, without further ado and for your viewing pleasure...



(jon and em!)

(ack! i'm a terrible camera aimer! sorry about the partially chopped off head luke!)

(em and me!)

[there's some closeups of mine mom:) aren't you proud of your super creative daughter?! :) ]

dear french toast: i love you.

"friendship is an involuntary reflex; you just can't help it." i like that. way to go ted mosby.



[i wept. also i think that the french subtitles add a little je nais se quois, right?:)]

also this is what i'm going to be doing tomorrow night!!!

l-'a=the best name ever.

i triple dog dare you to not smile during this song.



couldn't do it, could ya? it's okay, you're only human.

i got a text from the future today. it said "yup".

the moon looked like this tonight (full with a ring around it). it was crazy cool, i hope you saw it!

you need to read the percy jackson series and then talk to me about it.

why is it 19 degrees outside? i am so freezing cold right now, i don't know if i can warm up. seriously, i'm feeling up my computer right now because it's so warm. don't you judge me.

i have been feeling super weird today. my throat (as previously mentioned) hurts way bad. it hurts to swallow and it feels like there's something stuck in there. maybe something is swollen? i don't know. it just kind of feels like all those antibiotics i was taking decided to just hang out in my throat and so there's a pile of pills stuck to the side of my throat. and it hurts. and also, i kept getting kinda dizzy and almost blacking out. not like my normal black outs/fainting. like i'd just be sitting there and all of a sudden i'd feel super light headed and dizzy. what does this mean!?

also: i actually feel tired tonight! maybe i'll actually get to sleep a few hours-yay!

my little big planet guy has a mustache and a bunny tail.

three random facts about today:

1-the song gold digger was stuck in my head all through out sacrament meeting. i tried to get it out, but it just kept coming back.
2-double indemnity is a super rad movie.
3-i miss jumping on the tramp. i was looking through some old jumping pictures and feeling very nostalgic.

additionally-can anyone describe to me what tonsilitis feels like? i'm pretty sure i have it. well, it's either tonsilitis or esophagus-o-death...one of the two, i'm sure of it.

because he said "i think you're retarded"

so how was my day?

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solemn low five

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come on, everybody's doing it...:)

dy-no-mite.

this is what i listen to to get in an awesome mood:

*i gotta feeling - black eyed peas (i physically cannot stop myself from dancing to this song)
*i do not hook up - kelly clarkson
*my life would suck without you - kelly clarkson (what can i say, she freaking rocks)
*under pressure - queen and david bowie (so awesome. if you don't sing this song at the top of your lungs in your car there is something wrong with you)
*crazy in love - beyonce
*single ladies - beyonce (i don't really get into this kind of music, but i can't not dance to those songs)
*gold digger - glee cast
*don't stop believing - journey (duh)

i triple dog dare you to not be happy listening to these songs. it won't happen, you can't help but car dance and feel just a little bit happier :)

[ps. i'm getting like a hundred hits a day, yet i only have 13 followers and no one ever comments. it would make me feel so special if you did either:) ]

my life would suck without you :)

wow. talk about overwhelmed. today started kinda crappy (hello migraine, it's been ages, nice of you to drop by...) and ended with me crying (but a good kind of cry). it's weird how life can seem kind of mundane with all it's little crappy things and then all of a sudden-bam!-the universe slaps you in the face and reminds you, despite stupidness, how awesome it is.

my list of awesome:

1- emme

em is my best friend. she is there for me, in every possible way, always. we think so much alike, we can almost have telepathic conversations like ted and marshall on how i met your mother. we like almost all of the same things, can talk about anything (and i mean anything, not just superficial stuff), and even lets me come bawl on her couch at 3 in the morning during a snow storm. she's had a crazy life, but it's made her the person she is today and i am so grateful for her. she means the world to me and i hope she knows how much i love her.

2-jon

jon is also my best friend. he is always honest with me and i really appreciate that. he also didn't give up on me when i was a misanthropic hermit. he kept inviting me to things and made me laugh when i wanted to kill everyone with my mind. he's helped me come out of hiding and make new friends and i'm so grateful to him for that. he also introduces me to a lot of awesome things: cool movies, books, his wife, fun friends...jon's basically the shiz.




jon and emme together? oh man. the best married friends ever. they always make me feel included and loved and never make me feel like their lame-o single friend. i am always laughing with them and they are just two of the best people you will ever meet.

add emme + jon and you get...

3-ily

holy cow. she is like my valium. i can be so upset and distraught and just holding her calms me down. she makes my soul smile and my heart melts when she smiles at me. i sure do love that baby girl. she's my little bestie:)

man. i just will have to stop there, my heart is about to burst with gratitude right now. schwarzmann family: this one's for you:)

guess who got a laser pointer today: probably the most irresponsible gift you could possibly give me. i'm overjoyed.

got a whole lot done today, including but not limited to:

*job interview
*lit paper
*oil change
*emails
*bills paid
*textbooks shipped
*lit reading
*watched citizen kane for film

and now i'm exhausted....

end scene.

you know what is a good idea? staying up until 5 in the morning doing your laundry. oh wait i forgot-that's actually stupid.

what a fun day! mega-sleep in (it's a holiday!), lunch with laura (zupas-yum!), then ikea with jon, em & ily (we found some way cool couches!), then super delish dinner + games + sunshine with jon, emme & jordan (ily was hanging out being adorable with her sleepy zombie hands).

i give this martin luther king jr day two thumbs up:)


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how hard is it to sneak into the zoo? i need to see some penguins. like right now.

it's a great day for america everybody. great church, great dinner with jon, emme & dan. plus how i met your mother (i've introduced jon and em-they are now hooked; it's like crack).

k here's the deal

for the first time in a long time i feel like this. i can't keep from smiling. i am loving school. i am loving having friends, not to mention a real live social life where i actually do things with said friends. i am loving my apartment. i am loving not having a job. i am loving finally being able to just be myself and not apologize for it. i am loving life.

for realsies.

ps. tonight i watched the coolest movie: 'moon'. watch it-seriously, one of the best movies i've seen in a loooong time.

pps. i am pretty much the best cleaner in the whole wide world. you could probably eat off the bathroom floors at my grandparent's house. not to brag or anything. i'm just sayin...

awesome possum.

tonight was so cool. first i tie dyed a shirt. i tried to do a rainbow spiral! i'll post some pictures when it's done:)

then i went to this



it was way cool. i'm way excited to go next month and actually have tickets so i don't have to sit in the back by a seat encroacher.

then there was debauchery at brick oven (i heart you frozen raspberry lemonade)

then moulin rouge at em's with new friends. i had a great time! plus ily smiled so big at me before i left. adorb:)

you know who i love?

my mom:)

i feel a little bit like throwing up. i think it might be the entire can of chili i ate for dinner. just a guess.

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alright, it's time for a battle royale: bed vs. lit homework...i wonder who will win...

ps. any one want to loan me...oh...about eight to ten thousand dollars? i'll pay you back (with interest) when i graduate. come on, you know i'm good for it...anyone? bueller? if not, i'm going to have to do something drastic.

the sun is a mass of incandescent gas

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it's the truth. seriously, i haven't been this social since...i'm going to go with ever. here's the lowdown of just this past few days:

thursday: finally met mcrae (one of nolan's mission buddies that would sing to me on the tapes) and his friends and ate yummy chili's. totally last second and had a blast.
saturday: dunch and 'leap year' with teddy roosevelt, followed by dinner with em
sunday: totally went to church (and stayed the whole time), hung out with em and ily, and played games with new friends luke, matt, mcrae & jeffries
tuesday: finally went to exceptional movie tuesday

and that just brings us up to today. wanna hear what i have planned for the next few days?

wednesday: lunch with brad (? still up in the air about what day)
thursday: movie with laura
friday: jamba juice + people watching and who got the better deal with jason at the wilk (i'm pretty sure that i'm going to see someone get engaged.), movie with chad, tie dye party with jon, em & their friend dan, and then byu student film festival with new friend luke and hopefully some more fun peeps

seriously, in just that week, i will be being more social than i have been in the past like four years. maybe more. it's good for my soul:)

what are you sinking about?

so here's what i'm pondering today:

*couch surfing...have any of you done it? it seems pretty legit and a great way to go if you can't spend all that much...i'm thinking of doing it in europe in summer 2012 (assuming the world doesn't end...[it won't]). here's a link to check it out. tell me what you think please:)

*kiddie kandids...i think most of you probably know i worked there for a while. heather just texted me telling me that kiddie kandids just told everyone that they no longer have jobs and they won't be getting their last check. can you believe that?!?!? the entire company. gone. that is crazy.

*i really like how this semester is going so far, academically. i feel like there's a really good chance of me achieving my 4.0 semester goal. my classes are challenging (ie. i actually feel like i'm learning something), but it's nothing i can't handle as long as a manage my time well and get my reading/homework done. so that's pretty exciting :)

*change...i am going to be making some big changes soon. i'm nervous to tell people about what i'm planning, but pretty excited at the same time. i've come up with a plan that, for the first time in quite a long time, feels right. i can't explain the feeling-it's just complete in its 'rightness'. does that make sense? i'm not quite ready to tell people yet, but when i do-just know that i'm doing what's best for me. i can't keep making decisions based on other people.

*family pictures. check them out!

juno what my favorite movie is? yeah, juno? ... beowulf.

i have to do some homework now, so i don't have a lot of time to write a lot of stuff. suffice it to say: today was a good day. stayed the whole time at church, hung out with em and the ilster, made some new friends, played some games...it was a good day. now i believe i'll help myself to some cheerios and beowulf:)


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spring break?

saturday is a special day

today started out sucktastic and ended on a high note (fortunately).

sucktastic: i did not make silver team...because i did not go to tryouts. beautiful antibiotic that it is, clarithromycin makes my mouth taste like pennies/metal. it's bad. no matter how bad you think it is, it's like ten times worse than that. it's so bad that it makes me sick to my stomach. which is counterintuitive and awesome. so i woke up this morning so nauseous from the bad taste that i literally could not get out of bed. so i missed tryouts. i really felt like i had a pretty good shot at making the team, so i'm pretty disappointed.

getting better: then teddy roosevelt and i went to dunch (lunch + dinner) at zupas (yum), and went to see 'leap year'. overall, i liked it. it's a cute romcom, perfect for a saturday afternoon matinee. for some reason i didn't like amy adams very much in it (which is unusual because i normally adore her), but the guy in it? sooooooper dreamy. scruffy, irish accent, damaged from a former heartbreak, and funny? sign me up. however, please do not sign me up to sit next to a fat lady that noisily sucks in her snot every two seconds whilst encroaching on my personal space. blow your nose and keep your fat arms on your side of the arm rest. we're not dating, don't grace my garden. (harsh, but remember i was still mad/sad about team)

awesome: then i went to dinner with em. yummy pizza, delish frozen raspberry lemonade, awesome convo with best friend? check. emme's had a crazy life, but it's made her into the beyawesome (beyond+awesome-it's from bolt) person and friend she is. plus emme + jon = ily, so...basically, em's the best human ever:)

now i'm going to get into my nice, warm bed (i heart you electric blanket) and try to sleep away my hurty back. byeeeeeee.

ah, nyquil-we meet again...

it's official: ballroom company tryouts are tomorrow. i'm trying out for silver team. so cross your fingers, toes, legs, eyes, etc. for me! auditions start at 8 (throw up) in the morning and i'm going around 7 (more throw up) to get a couple minutes practice time with ben. i'm super nervous-other than the past two days of lessons with him, i haven't danced since concert last spring. yikes. oh well. the best i can do is the best i can do. we're supposed to get the results later that day, so i will keep you posted!!!

my mouth tastes like

(curse you clarithromycin.)

i might die in my sleep tonight on account of the whole "can't breathe" thing.

wellp, school's started again. (i know, didn't it just barely end? i feel like i had a painted blue face and was shouting 'freeeeeeedommmmmm!!!!!!!!!!' at the top of my lungs just five minutes ago. weird.) here's a rundown on my schedule today, just in case you feel like stalking me in the future or whatever.

11am-brit lit before 1800: i'm kind of nervous that we're starting right away with hard stuff like beowulf (i like to read but don't ever really challenge myself, which is what i'm hoping to do with this class. seriously, i didn't even take an english class my senior year...of course i did edit an ENTIRE BOOK, but whatev.), but the teacher seems way cool and i'm trying to challenge myself a little bit more.

12pm-intro to polisci: i hate politics. i don't know what is going on ever, and (for the most part) i don't care. i know. i'm a terrible person, my vote counts and all that. but you know what? i think that america would rather have me not vote than have me vote on someone based on what the candidate's name rhymes with or whatever retarded criteria i came up with in the voting booth. the teacher seems way cool though. maybe he will make me care....we'll see.

1pm-nothing as of yet, but i'm hoping to make silver team (!) keep your fingers (and toes and eyes and whatever else ya got) crossed for me!!!

3pm-film history II: i'm pretty excited about this class. it does nothing for my major, but i had a class from the professor last semester and loved it. plus i love movies. and getting a grade for learning about them? yes please!

and there you have it. feel free to stalk me at your leisure monday, wednesdays, and fridays.

more tomorrow:)

i am crying a river unintentionally.

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seriously, i can't breathe through my nose at all and my eyes look like i've been maced.

ugh you got my lungs.

you are never too old to set another goal or to dream a new dream.

and now, the moment you've all been waiting for...my resolutions!!!

educational:
1. get a 4.0 this semester
2. take at least 2 online classes beginning after may 1st

spriritual:
1. read the book of mormon at least once
2. go to church every sunday
*subgoal: stay the whole time

financial:
1. get all-the-way-not-a-penny-left-100% out of debt
2. have at least $4000 in savings

social:
1. do something with friends at least once a week
2. throw an awesome planned event once a month

physical:
1. eat healthy
2. be more active

i've decided that the 1st blog of the month will have a little section devoted to giving an update on how i'm doing on my resolutions-this will make me feel more accountable for my work (or lack thereof) on my goals. i got this idea from a blog i'm absolutely addicted to, you should check it out. beware: you will be hooked. i guaran-dang-tee it.

the brothers think i don't know a butt load of crap about the gospel...but i do.

so i'm trying to go to sleep and i can't because my whole body hurts. okay, maybe not my whole body...but my back and neck are super stiff and hurty and my head feels like it's about to explode like on fringe. so...hopefully that doesn't happen, the brain explosion part.

we had family pictures today, the photographer was great-really good direction and super organized, which was great because we were outside and it was pretty cold! when she puts some sneak peeks up on her blog i'll throw the link up here so you can check em out:)

winter break is swiftly coming to a close...i'm both sad and excited about it. sad because i have to go back to my real life and leave my protective warm bubble of my parents house and excited because i get to turn over a new leaf with school this semester with a brand new attitude and possibly a not broken body.

2010...wow, you are off to an amazing start.

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resolutions to come sunday...it's my tradiction (noun: a tradition you are addicted to).